I have a lovely baby girl. She's 7. I posted a pic of my Athena on my profile. Like I said before my paranoia was so thick it was as deep as an army or atv all terrain vehicle to drive through it. I was constantly on a watch waiting for someone to break in and attack me. Well, I sit back and wait and so far no one's attacked me. I lived in fear at night all the time. Now, thanks to my Geodon, I don't live in fear no more. (anymore) Sorry I had to correct myself. I still lock my doors at night before it ever starts to get dark. I still keep my phone close by me in case I have to call 911. I still stay on a guard like I am guarding my life. But why? I live in fear that my paranoia will eventually return. Medicine can only prolong it's inevitable return. I am a schizoaffective, so it's return is inevitable. But when?
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