Sounds like a good time for a therapy exercise. Have either of your doctors suggested any? So, or no, sharing about it is always a good first step.

When my own moods are swinging, I like to use grounding exercises. There are a ton of them on the internet. Something for every taste preference and personality type.

Gentlest of support and validation while you find what works for you, April.

April, you are not alone in feeling confused because of this disorder. Please take some solace in that. Be kind to y0urself, get out and exercise if you can to burn off steam, see your docs, see friends, be patient as this will pass, and again, be kind to yourself.

It depends on the person but if I feel irritable I know I can then get to judging myself harshly for that if I am not careful. The older I get the less I feel like judging or condemning anyone...especially myself so I try to feel compassion for that irritable part of me that seems to be in the lead and ask it to step back. But that’s me, I hope you find a way through your confusion to a peaceful, calm and clear place from which you can enjoy life better.

April there are times when I feel a lot like you do I think it's part of the BP mix and I'm sorry you are going through this. I think a lot of us are and I sure can empathize. There are some great replies here and I can only join in on the self-compassion front it might be the only way to get through the many moods we have to travel through...

Hi April, (((gentle hug))) I'm sorry you are feeling so low I hope today is a better day for you and I agree with the others, please be kind to yourself know that you are not alone and that we all understand so turn to us no matter what mood you are in. Try not to do to much or judge yourself harshly you need to walk slower that's all and if your heart is raw be kind to it watch something fun or funny, stay away from stress and stressful people and remember.....that this too shall pass, I hope you feel better very soon x

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Has your Pdoc ever talked to you about "Rapid Cycling"? From what you say, it sounds like you might be experiencing some "Rapid Cycling". It means cycling (changing) from depressed/anxious to hypomanic/manic frequently; it can be several times a day, several times a week, etc. and it can come and go. Unfortunately BiPolar Disorder is one of those Disorders that does not always "act" the way we it think it should, regardless of the types/number of Dr.'s we have. All you can do is be diligent in your Therapies, both medical and psychological, be open and honest with your Therapist/Pdoc so they know how to treat you, and get to that stable plane. Sadly there are no quick fixes or ways to circumvent these actions, it would make this Disorder much easier to live with if there were.

Take care,
K

I aprecate everyone I'm feeling much better