So I went to the pdoc the other day, and told her I was mildly depressed and told her why. Well now I am going to get some advice from the DS community. I have this friend who takes my daughter on fridays and watches her right, well she made this comment how she thinks I am neglecting my child because I am not playing with her enough. Apparently my daughter made a comment to her that she wished she was played with more. The comment made me sad and bluesy and I started to get depressed. I took an extra geodon and it made me feel better for a day. My pdoc won't perscribe me an antidepressant or raise my geodon. my pdoc reassured me that I am in fact not neglecting my child. She said neglect is when you don't feed your kid or bathe them or make sure that the have the things that they need. Well I do all of that. I take care of her, feed her, bathe her, and so forth. I am not rich so I don't lavish the food on her, but she gets fed whether it's hamburger helper, spaghetti, or sandwhiches, she gets fed. I even pop her popcorn during the evenings for a snack. She's been tired of popcorn....so I've had to go out to the store to buy cookies, funyions (sp), pretzels and chips. Well....the reason my daughter is upset is because I stopped playing brat dolls with her.....how many days out of the week can one play brat dolls and for how long and why can she play for hours on end and not get bored of the same thing over and over again. I am so sick and tired of playing brat dolls I wish I could rip my hair out I am so sick of it. When my husband heard the news he went to the store and bought 5 board games. He bought jenga.....I love jenga I can't wait till my daughter gets back from camp to play jenga with her. He bought guess who, I love that game too. He bought hungry hugnry hippos, yahtzee, and disney pixar monopoly. he even told me when I get my jcpenny account set up again that I could buy the hannah montanna cd game that's onsale on their website. My daughter loves hannah montanna. The game is out of stock until august. but when I get my password set up again, I forgot my jcpenny password and need to reset it and their website is down for maintence. Well I was at camp this week till wednesday. I was helping out and washing their dishes for them. until I got depressed. I left my daughter stay there and finish her week out at camp with my friend. She is getting all the attention she needs from the campers, and I get my badly deserved break. I am not allowed to take any extra meds to fight off this depression. My husband has been screaming like a girl and making me laugh. He hates seeing me depressed. And my husband could tell I was depressed. If my husband could tell why couldn't my pdoc? I am so pissed that she didn't do anything to help me. I love her as a pdoc....she's never done this to me before....every other time I needed a med change she's always came through with it.....I wonder why not this time. Maybe I wasn't depressed enough for her standards.....I dunno. But I am still not any better. The reason my daughter is upset is because I am bored of playing brat dolls. And I told her I wanted a break from brat dolls. I can't wait for my daughter to get home from camp so I can show her all of the board games my husband bought for us to play. I hope she will like them. My step daughter picked out Yahtzee and hungry hungry hippos. Hungry hungry hippos is away with my step daughter at camp. She took the game camping with her mother and my daughter won't get to play that game till she gets back. Thanks for listening to my rant everyone. I appreciate it. If you guys have any suggestions, I'd appreciate it....anything I can do to alleviate this nosedive in my moods would be greatly appreciated.



Lots of luv,

Princess