1. don't

2. If you want to push back against his controlling nature then refer to point 1. and don't allow him to dictate your mood either

Princess, I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time right now. It can be really tough in marriages sometimes, especially when we feel under-appreciated for our contributions. An important thing to remember is that you CAN'T control him, but you can control yourself- meaning, do YOU appreciate what you do? Do YOU thank yourself for the hard work you do? If you don't take care of yourself, by treating yourself nicely, how can you expect him to do the same?

Is there something you can do to today to soothe yourself? Put on some nice music and sway to it, for example?

Exc. advice, Harriet!
Princess, I think you need to spend sometime learning to love yourself. If you can do that his behavior will just slide off your back.
Louise Hay says to stand in front of the mirror and talk to yourself. Tell yourself that YOU love YOU. Takes awhile to sink in of course, but if you keep it up, you will see a difference
Hugs, Bobbi

I am so sorry you are struggling Princess.......I think you have alot going on in your life right now....you are feeling unappreciated, overwhelmed and getting ready to return to school. That stress alone can be very triggering let alone taking minimal meds.

When you feel better, we can talk about ways you can work on that, but for now, just try to remember who you are and the positive things you have in your life. These issues can all be worked through and you and your husband can learn to communicate better with one another. It seems he becomes agitated with everything you try to do and maybe there are some ways you can avoid that.

Try to fight against your desire to be down on yourself and learn to appreciate YOURSELF as Harriet pointed out. Noone can appreciate us until we appreciate ourselves. It is more about likeing the person that we are then being upset because we cant have our way with everything. It is about learning what really makes you valuable as a person.

Get rid of the meds you are not using or have your husband hide them from you, it is never safe to have a "stash". Call a friend or family member to talk to. Take your daughters out somewhere. Find something that makes you feel good, like your hanna montana music and play it and exercise or dance. Anything to distract yourself in the moment. Then when your head is clear you can work on the issues with your husband. Take care of you. xo

I agree with everyone, and may I suggest that you please call your Doc.

Would your husband go to the doctor with you? I know it's hard, mine won't either, but it's worth asking.

Hugs, Jen

Princess, you sound like you want to fight back against the controlling aspect of your husbands personality. In order to do that you have to stay determined to confront your own nature first. Taking all your pills will only make you unstable and in need of care all the more. Stand your ground and resist the drama that will only create more drama. You have a lot to look forward to. You are starting school, and this will enable you a whole new world of freedom. I think it is admirable that you are trying so hard, keep trying.And give yourself a great big hug. ~ Hugs~ xx

Princess, I know you fear calling your doc because she will want you back on meds, but you have to decide if you can handle this illness with "coping skills" alone. The way to do that is to put them in place right now. Do the things you need to do to help you through this and get rid of the pills that you threaten to use.

What are your "coping skills" for depression and handling the negative thoughts? What will you do?

I usually listen to music but the hubby and I talked and my tears have slowed to a halt and I feel a little better. I may still opt for a lunch box for school because the meal plans are still outrageous in my opinion and I am not sure I am gonna have enough money to get what I want to get and get a meal plan as well. So maybe talking the hubby into a lunch box too would be a better idea. The ideal meal plan for me would cost me 650 out of pocket and I still think that's expensive for a commuter.

Sorry you are having this trouble hon. Men suck sometimes. You need to call your pdoc or an emergency crisis line or something to that effect to get yourself some help if you are serious. Hugs.

Princess, have you spoken to your pdoc? This sounds pretty serious. I'm so sorry you are having a tough time.

*HUGS*

Princess, I know you felt like this "depressed" feeling was a crisis because you were feeling hurt and at a loss. But, you see how easily it was remedied by talking to your husband. This is one lesson to learn for the future. When you are upset with your husband, walk away for a bit and then go back and talk to him and work things out. It is always so much better and can help your situational depression.

Remember what I said in my hug, compromise is necessary in marriage sometimes. If he is allowing you the other things, maybe you should drop the lunch box idea out of respect, since you know it bothers him. We cant always have everything we want, we have to sacrafice some things for the greater good, which in your case, is peace in your marriage.

xo

I am sorry you're feeling so bad! It really sucks when these things just overwhelm us. I hope you can do something nice for yourself and get feeling better. You deserve it.

If you haven't already, calmly talk to him about how you are feeling. Maybe he doesn't know he's doing this.

I am listening.

you need your meds. trust me i am there without it right now and its really freaking hard. my husband and i have tons of problems right now and just found out i was bipolar yesterday. my husband cuts me down and makes me feel like the lowest thing on the earth...i already hate myself enough. he makes it worse.i cry and cry and cry all the time. i yell and get upset, and am confused with my moods. dont understand this either.