Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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grumpopilous
grumpopilous
I know you all arent my pschiatrists and I wouldnt usually post this but I feel so alone and am in alot of pain..... i cant stand myself and feel that Im not worth having a life, All I do is cause others pain..... I have been on alot of mood stabilizers,antidepressants, anti anxiety meds and antipsychotics over the past year and a few months.... I have only had one "manic" episode where I was then hospitalized and put on mood stabilizers antipsychotics and antidepressants.... Ever since I have been switching around meds and in/out of the hospital.... Nothing has worked for me and right now I have went off all of my meds to try something different because I cannot get any relief from anything...... Any advice, support would be greatly appreciated

I am very sad right now..... Lately this is how I feel:
-No energy, feeling ehausted all the time withoud doing any physical activity
-I am always tired
-dark and gloomy
-I have lost all of my feelings, all I have left is anger and sadness.....My girlfriend and I are just hanging on by a string and at the moment we seem to be more roomates than lovers(we have been together for about 3 years)
-I am always pissed off, agitated, angry and bitchy.....
-My sleep pattern is all out of wack, i stay up most the night and sleep almost all day, I hate sleep but when I get to sleep its very hard to wake up
-I have headaches every day, some days are more painful than others
-My mind is always active and on autopilot, I am very edgy, scared, jumpy, creeped out. Very uncomfortable all of the time
-Sweaty ad anxious
-sensitive to ecess audio and visual
- my mid drives me to being very uptight, angry,awkward, sad..... I am in pain 24/7
-Extremely weak and sore
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Im sorry to hear how badly you are feeling... it can take quite some time to get on the right med cocktail.. it took me over 3 years.. I also have an anxiety disorder and AD's send me to the moon..
hang in there it does get better once the meds are under control.. are you in any therapy?.. I found this helped me quite a bit along with meds
Big hug of support for you
deleted_user
deleted_user
I know how you feel.... I feel like that all the time... Its hard going through something like that.. What helps me is music and if i can stand it i watch funny movies. Also I try to meditate to calm my mind down... And I will sometimes read so that I can try and focus. I dont know if any of this wil help but if you are up and need to talk i am normally online! Feel free to message me
deleted_user
deleted_user
So sorry that you are having hard time, I would suggest that you seek therapy and talk to your pdoc asap, so you would feel better by therapy (it works for me) and maybe your pdoc needs also to tweak your meds.

Wish you the best, and we are here for you when you need to talk,

ScubaBeeper
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i would say first go to your family doctor and get a complete physical and then a referral to his or her pdoc-and then i would tell the pdoc what your telling us-there is help ou there-good luck!
deleted_user
deleted_user
i'm sorry that you're going through this right now. i have been going through a lot recently and we are trying to get my meds straight now. apparently the lamictal wasn't working as well as i thught it was. but i am proud of myself for keeping a mood chart and when i showed pdoc yesterday at appt she even wrote down web site, cause it's a good mood chart. you might want to chart your moods and make notes about physical problems and things that happen to you so maybe you can begin to discover what your triggers are
it sounds like you are very depressed, your symptoms are very like mine when i am depressed, except i feel completely worthless and do not have a problem with being mad or agitated, this is in no way meant to be a diagnosis as i'm definitely not a psychiatrist or psychologistsdefinitely talk to doc and maybe ask about therapy
i am here if you ever need to talk
hugs
andrea
grumpopilous
grumpopilous
Thanks for all your advice and support, it mean alot.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I know how you feel, I have been where you are, if you see me on-line feel free ti sebd me a PM and we can talk.
deleted_user
deleted_user
If you have gone off your meds quickly you can expect to feel badly. It is better to be weaned off many anti-depressants, anti-psychotics and anti-convulsants. This may explain headaches, sweating, anxiety , sleep problems and generally feeling sick all over.
Finding the right med combination can be time consuming and hard on you. I have been on eight different drugs in less than a year without success.
When I am depressed I also deal with a lot of physical pain too. Depression and pain can go hand in hand. An anti-depressant like cymbalta is meant to deal with this combination. Typically, the pain is in your joints and soft tissues. Google "depression, pain" and see what you come up with. Cymbalta is the only drug I can think of off the top of my hat but there are others. (And yes, the pain can be severe!)
I am one of those people considered to be "non-responsive" to Bipolar meds, but I am speaking on the basis of many, many years of experience with a multitude of meds and a specialist in pharma-psychology. I am down to ECT therapy.
Having said this, I must say you are relatively new to the medication game.
Could you tell us which meds you have been on?
Susan
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It actually sounds familiar, and absolutly sucks! I don't think you med combo is woking, and have you seen a doctorr to rule out physical causes for some of the symptoms? Just cuz you've got bp, doesn't mean you don't have other stuff going on. I was blaming alot on my bp, when i think there were more physical causes than i realised. those causes at the least trigger the bp depression. Drink lots of water too. so sorry i can't really help you. but maybe a doc can. keep going after it, you are worth it!
deleted_user
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You sound really depressed. Try to get outside in the sun and do some sort of physical activity. Thesethings help me whenI can scrape myself out of bed and get olut of the house. Seeing your MD is another goodi dea. While researching this lovely disorder, I came across several studies which demonstrate that the younger you are when diagnosed and receive treatment, the more manageable your illness will be as you get older. Lamictal is a good mood stabilizer for depressed bipolars. Find a good MD who is very experienced with meds and then find a therap;ist who can provide you with support and coping assist. Good luck an d it does get better, but takes some time. Hang in there/.
deleted_user
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I agree that it takes time to get the right meds going. keep trying things with your doctor. we understand your moods. be gentle with yourself and remember that you have an illness, no blame, no shame.
grumpopilous
grumpopilous
Well first off I would like to thank all of you, and this site for being behind me and for all of your support,ideas and praise...... Today I ended up going to emerg and luckily, my doc was on call. So I got to chat with him and I will be going into the hospital as soon as a bed opens up so I can have another go at trying to find a proper med regime. As of now He put me on lamotragine(lamicital) for a mood stabilizer and were going to try luvox(fluvoxamine) for my antidepressant..... I have had a slight glimmer of hope with fluvoxamine in the past so we are going to try it again with this new mood stabilizer to see if it can drag me out of this slump......He told me that as of a couple months ago the top antidepressant for treating bipolar disorder is seroquel.... However I get knocked on my ass and extremely tired but who knows, might end up trying the seroquel(xr) extended release version if the fluvoxamine doesn't do anything..... Im very scared for another round of these type of meds but, here goes nothing !!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Stopping your meds is called "Going on Holiday" it's dangerouse because You can crash farther when you just stop then when your weaned off them. a bad crash ... well we know what can happen.

If you think you need to go on holiday (I did once, to many meds at one time i was upside down) do it in a hospital. the Pdoc let me chill for about 3-4 days then introduced one med at a time for like 2 weeks till I was less confused, tired, manic, what ever. BUT I was in the hospital the whole time.

Took me 3 years to get right meds, now we just tweek them if needed. Breath, relaxe, see your Pdoc.

Also I went through 8 Pdocs till I found a Dotc that worked lol

Love and Happiness mate, Erick
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