I am nearing my breaking point. My job is RIDICULOUS. I was treated like a child by BOTH of my bosses IN FRONT of people today. I am not getting paid enough to live. I don't get breaks or a lunch.
My sleep dr wants me to use oxygen with my cpap at night. I cannot afford it. I will be losing 2ndary medicaid in like a month because minimum wage went up. Between my psych meds and diabetes crap, I'll be lucky if I can afford to EAT let alone pay for more medical stuff. I am close to giving the hell up. I feel like I'm having a breakdown. But I can't afford to do that. I feel like I'm backed into a corner. Trapped like an animal.
And I'm a fat SOW. I know that I could rid myself of most of my nonpsych issues if I lost weight. But I have just given up. I hate myself.
Im sorry I'm so negative.
When I am a passenger in the front seat I get claustrophobic. My face gets Hot and I panic as if I can't breathe. I roll down the window for air. And put the fan in my face. What can I take from a homeopathic substance to help me. If I drive I am fine
Lately i have become aware that my rational fears cause me the same amount of anxiety as my admittedly irrational fears.The things that could *actually* happen also cause me to be just as avoident as my OCD fueled irrational worries do.i feel like some part of my brain has...i dunno,snapped.Snapped,with a chonically overactive parasympathetic nervous system? Too much always present elevated...