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I just can't

TC40
TC40

I am nearing my breaking point. My job is RIDICULOUS. I was treated like a child by BOTH of my bosses IN FRONT of people today. I am not getting paid enough to live. I don't get breaks or a lunch.


My sleep dr wants me to use oxygen with my cpap at night. I cannot afford it. I will be losing 2ndary medicaid in like a month because minimum wage went up. Between my psych meds and diabetes crap, I'll be lucky if I can afford to EAT let alone pay for more medical stuff. I am close to giving the hell up. I feel like I'm having a breakdown. But I can't afford to do that. I feel like I'm backed into a corner. Trapped like an animal. 


And I'm a fat SOW. I know that I could rid myself of most of my nonpsych issues if I lost weight. But I have just given up. I hate myself. 


Im sorry I'm so negative. 



LivingWater
LivingWater
Don't put yourself down. There are enough other people willing to do that! You are not a fat sow. You simply have a medical condition known as obesity, which is treatable. But for now, don't focus on that. You have survival issues to deal with. When things are more stable, you can work on the weight. I will help you.
polarbare
polarbare
Wow... Your having a terrible time.... Do you have a 211 line to find resources in your area that are free... Contact the mental health people and ask surely they help low income people with basic needs...... It's hard to lose weight when your dealing with so much but first take the pressure away ... Talk to someone your pdoc they should have answers .... I wish I knew more where your from ... I hope you feel better ((hugs)) polar
BothsidesBroken
BothsidesBroken
That does suck. I'm sorry it's so difficult. I feel ya. Obesity is treatable. You are a human, because pigs can't use keyboards effectively with their cloven hooves and would destroy a smartphone.
There are other low income services, as has been mentioned.
Have you considered a better job? You certainly deserve better
chris138
chris138
I hear you with the obesity. I am most likely 310 lbs. I can still move around pretty well. I should try and lose weight. I do like food. Also my beer every so often. Losing weight is hard, and you are not alone. For your job though, that is out of your control. The bosses and the environment seems pretty mean. Dunno. I am sorry you are having a hard time.
arfie
arfie
Apology NOT accepted, TC. Being able to vent and sort my gnarliest confusions is critical to my own psych maintenance and here is one of the places where I come to do that do. One for all and all for one. I hold being able to vent freely as a critical right here in this forum.

Sort freely. Sort often. We are here for you. Continued support while you sort.

A Bossly gang-bang? Triple howl ouch. Got me trembling at my keyboard, even without the thoughts of it happening in front of co-workers. . . Hope healing happens here. Another triple howl ouch. . .
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