Secrets are burdens you're so right and they can often escalate in our minds...
I hope you can find someone you can trust sweetie.. What about calling a distress centre if you don't want to share it with anyone you know??
We are here for you as well...
Big hug of peace for you...xo

I'm not sure who I can call with this. I know I need to tell the doctor. I can't get help if I'm not honest with him. But I'm afraid my valuable meds with get yanked and maybe they should not sure.

I know I need a serious med adjustment as well. I haven't been doing well for a while now.

But this problem is finally getting beyond my control.

spill it

Just out of curiosity, is it about things that go through your mind, and dark scary things that you THINK about?

Just wondering.....cuz I have had some really weird thoughts that I thought would get me in trouble.....homicidal thoughts......and I was put on anti-psychotics, and it helped.

I was also encouraged to stop watching the tv shows I was watching at the time.

I hope you can get it off your chest, because it is most certainly causing you anxiety carrying it around, and worrying about it. Good Luck!!

If you know that you should talk to your doc about it sweetie then you have your answer..
Most doctors are willing to discuss things and hear their patients..
I'm so sorry you aren't doing well..
I agree that if some of this has to do with deep dark thoughts believe me I've had horrible thoughts and even plans at times although I haven't carried them out

It's not deep dark thoughts. But it's something that's been going on for a little while now. At first it wasn't a problem but now...

It's an embarrassing habit. And it sets a very poor example. I'm ashamed of myself for even letting this happen.

The problem is now I can't stop thinking about it all day long. I know I've got a real problem. And just in time to get my kids too.

HUG

Do you go to a church? Maybe someone there can help you and they can't tell anyone. Hugs

There isn't anything under the Sun, that a Pdoc hasn't heard or seen.

Get it off your chest so you can get proper treatment, and some peace of mind

Hugs

Thanks

I'm thinking about telling my doctor. Not sure yet though.

I think almost all of us have had things go on or habits that we consider embarrassing.. I imagine though that thousands of people have that same secret...xoxo

Possibly, you are assuming you are going to get a lecture about this behavior , because YOU feel guilty about it ?

Talking it over with your Pdoc will probably help you to see, you aren't as "bad" as you think you are ?

Do you share your drugs with someone?

In another area:
My regular doctors brother (also a doctor) wants to take away my klonopin bec he thinks I can get addicted to it. Yes Dr. S would you like to go through $10,000 in one hour? and not be able to pay it off in 2 years? Would you like to have sex with 5 men in a week? in your case 5 women?" Your right I guess I could get addicted to klonopin it calms me down.

I get sooo pissed at Drs that dont understand BP!!!!!!!!

Anyway I know you ll decide whats best for you.

Hugs

Like your avatar!!!

definitely find a friend who is mature and who you can trust...

or even a stranger who you know is mature enough to give you good advice....

if its really bothering you ... pick one of us ...i think it would bring immediate results... and allow you to move to the next step...

get some relief ... you can PM me... if you like

I hate cliff hangers... whats goin on>?!??!?