Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I don't understand why I get depressed so much?

Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe

I don't know how to be happy anymore.  I Mostly feel sadness and anxiety.  I feel like I've done something wrong but what? Why am I so hard myself?  I know I'm a nice person that helps others.  I'm kind to animals.  I don't going around drestoying stuff.  Why do I feel quilty over nothing?


The last time I felt happy for a long time was when I was with my late husband.  Maybe I never really got over him.  


I have a boyfriend now that I've been seen for over 2 years now.  I love him very much.  He's very kind, considerate, compassionate and a great cook.  I'm so glad he's my boyfriend.


Why am I still depressed?  I feel like something's out to get me.  I have an appointment with my person this week.  Maybe she will know what's happened to me.


Right now I feel achy in the front of my head where I think my frontal lobes are.  Does that mean anything?

malibumark
malibumark
Sending peace and reassurance. It’s good you will bring this up with your person. I know mental health challenges can be exasperating. I also don’t know why I have to have this either but it’s just a medical condition we have to manage.
Peace
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
Thank you Mark. Peace be with you.
GinaWonder
GinaWonder
Mark said it so eloquently I don't know what to write... I have been down for a long, long, long time this go round.

One thing I thought of recently is that I have been here before and did come out of it..... it will happen again - for both of us I hope soon!
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
Thank you Gina, Hugs.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
I think the illness lends itself to feeling things very deeply. I have really low moments, even within different stages of life. Therapy is costly - but if you get a chance it’s good to work through the things that create the deepest sadness. For me, it’s grief. Doesn’t go away so coping skills are always on my mind. Hugs.
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
Hugs Hobolady.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Guilt... Ugh.... I think that was something used a lot for some in childhood and it's hard to shake if this was part of your formative years

Are your meds stable sweetie?... xo
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
I think my meds. are stable but I see my psychiatric nurse practioner tomorrow to talk about them.
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