why is normal life so difficult for me! I want to be a productive part of society! I can barely handle just being disabled, let alone support myself!

Deep breaths. Anxiety can get the best of us. I look back at certain moments and it was a swirling reality of anxiety and brewing hypomania. Requires anxiety-reducing techniques, sometimes PRN med, ensuring good sleep hygiene. Many things, I learned in a workshop about anxiety what physically happens as the body fires off fight or flight responses - so helpful to break down the mechanics of what happens when we are hit with anxiety.

Go easy on yourself. Show up for the work and it will get easier and easier. Once you get going you will do fine. Stay strong!

Anxiety sucks. What works for me is breaking down each task into smaller "chunks" and deal with them one at a time. This way i know i'm making progress and makes it feel easier. Hang in there you got this.

I agree with what Lady wrote.... If you need to call your pdoc and ask for a prn med to help you get through to the first day

Try colouring... It really does help with anxiety.... Stay away from caffeine products.... A psych I know that specializes in Anxiety stated in an in service that the first question he asked any new patient was about their caffeine intake

You can do this.... Big hug....xo

I can handle depression OR anxiety, not both. My narration job is freelance. I don't work for anyone. I can drop out without any consequences. I can come back to it when and if I figure out this anxiety problem. I am truly thankful for all the support. Thank you!

Just to put a bow on this, I feel almost 100% better. My game plan is to get a therapist again and talk through this stuff. Hopefully I can find a way to make use of my narration ability whether that's going right back to actually narrating, or something else. Thanks again for the support.