Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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I would rather have PTSD, BPD, OBSESSIVE COMPLUSIVE DISORDER, or any other personality disorder out there than have some damn mental illness that I have no control over.
I have being Bipolar, it means I have no control over what goes on in my brain, I don't deal with that well. It means I have to rely on some foreign chemical to control the way my brain functions'.
Me, Wiccanwolf master of his own world. Oh and buy the way I have been Dx'ed with PTSD and BPD tendencies At least with behavioral disorders I can learn new ways of coping, learn to deal with theses anomalies by changing my behavior. Even when I have these things under control I still here from people:
Damn Will, you just ain't right, Will, your emotions are all over the place. Will you ain't thinking straight.
Is it possible that there is something actually wrong with this brain, the same one that has gotten me out of more jams and trouble than I could possibly express here. A mind in it's own environment is almost unequalled. A mind that has left more P'docs scratching their collective heads than I can count
I expressed earlier that I master my own world, over my own mind. I've done that by controlling who enters it, know that has changed so has the control I have over it. By letting others in it has screwed up my entire perception of my world.
How do I know learn to except that I'm mentally ill and not just spiritually ill (used metaphorically)?
Just venting (perhaps this should have been a journal entry)
The Wolf
I have being Bipolar, it means I have no control over what goes on in my brain, I don't deal with that well. It means I have to rely on some foreign chemical to control the way my brain functions'.
Me, Wiccanwolf master of his own world. Oh and buy the way I have been Dx'ed with PTSD and BPD tendencies At least with behavioral disorders I can learn new ways of coping, learn to deal with theses anomalies by changing my behavior. Even when I have these things under control I still here from people:
Damn Will, you just ain't right, Will, your emotions are all over the place. Will you ain't thinking straight.
Is it possible that there is something actually wrong with this brain, the same one that has gotten me out of more jams and trouble than I could possibly express here. A mind in it's own environment is almost unequalled. A mind that has left more P'docs scratching their collective heads than I can count
I expressed earlier that I master my own world, over my own mind. I've done that by controlling who enters it, know that has changed so has the control I have over it. By letting others in it has screwed up my entire perception of my world.
How do I know learn to except that I'm mentally ill and not just spiritually ill (used metaphorically)?
Just venting (perhaps this should have been a journal entry)
The Wolf
your by no means a dumb ass blonde and perhaps scary still is you've seen inside the mind of the reclusive Wolf
We can never be free from ourselves, but I truly believe we all find our own ways to cope in the long run - and it is the journey that makes it interesting.
Venting is a historically valid literary way of reaching out, or getting it out of our systems. It is human and real. So vent away. And if my answer doesn't work, then just go on to the next one, because someone is bound to resonate with you eventually.
It is less the illness and more people's reaction to the illness that gets me. I am close to the norm, why should it matter if I am NOT the norm, if I am close enough to approximate it? The law of averages should take care of everything else.
This morning, there was a truck outside that had weirdo pictures and slogans about Newtown and another issue.
This freaked me out, so I went into my office and turned on my Gita. I won't take a walk today because of it. And, since it has been cloudy, I feel like I live in the Land of the Midnight Sun. It's horrible.
I don't really care about the disease as much as people hurting me and harming people who are like me. I worry that the sane are actually more harmful than me because of how extreme they are getting. I'm scared.
I don't really focus a whole lot on the condition. But, that is not to invalidate you. I do know what you mean.
it can and will manifest itself in a myriad of different ways, and mimic a host of other mental illness. it is like a leopard that can change it's spots at will, and it is way, way harder to treat than BP.
BP is an acceptable disease; PTSD feels like a personal weakness.
I hate it.