Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I've been working through some trauma related stuff with my therapist.
Today was the last straw! I had some major flashbacks today, I couldn't handle it. I broke down crying and as much as I am still trying to distract myself hours later.... I find myself still devising plans to kill myself.
I feel broken, destroyed. Shit on.
I posted in another support group (on another site) ...I asked for support, they deleted my post without warning. How is wanting support so wrong!? How is having feelings, like any other human WRONG?
I've texted 2 people and they havent gotten back to me...granted its late.
I called my therapist around 4pm and left a message telling her the severity of my mood. She never bothered to call back.
AM I SERIOUSLY ALL ALONE IN THIS??????
All I need is some understanding...
I took some Vistiril in hopes of relieving the panic/anxiety that has built up. Honestly. it took all of me not to take the whole bottle of it...and the next bottle of pills and the next.
Why should I have to live like this? Why should I suffer anymore???
Today was the last straw! I had some major flashbacks today, I couldn't handle it. I broke down crying and as much as I am still trying to distract myself hours later.... I find myself still devising plans to kill myself.
I feel broken, destroyed. Shit on.
I posted in another support group (on another site) ...I asked for support, they deleted my post without warning. How is wanting support so wrong!? How is having feelings, like any other human WRONG?
I've texted 2 people and they havent gotten back to me...granted its late.
I called my therapist around 4pm and left a message telling her the severity of my mood. She never bothered to call back.
AM I SERIOUSLY ALL ALONE IN THIS??????
All I need is some understanding...
I took some Vistiril in hopes of relieving the panic/anxiety that has built up. Honestly. it took all of me not to take the whole bottle of it...and the next bottle of pills and the next.
Why should I have to live like this? Why should I suffer anymore???
You will get better. You will no longer be haunted by the past, but you will grow stronger by learning about something in the past that hurt. This hurt can teach anyone to rise above it and put it behind and learn from it.
And then you, like I did (BP 1 and proud of it by the way) can escape the valley of doom and slowly but surely get better. Meds help too, a spoonful of summit every day fore ever to win and be strong. Be the best, make new mistakes and learn.