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I am pissed off and upset tonight........

kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I am very pissed off and upset tonight. I went to go hand in my job search papers well I only had 20 hours and you are suppose to have 30 hours so needless to say they wouldnt accept it. The lady basically said to me well if you cant do it owell. She told me to talk to my case worker. I have my med 1 form filled out from my pdoc saying I cant do this but they still wont accept it. I can't see doing this if I am not going to be working afterward anyway. So I would be basically doing it for the sake of doing it. Does not make sense to me. They say it is mandatory to do this WHY when you have a mental illness that is preventing you from working so why bother doing it anyway so so stupid. This state sucks. I left the place in tears crying off and on driving home it was quite scary. I was having an anxiety attack also I could hardly breath and focus to drive home. I was sweating like a pig to. I just dont get it. I am in alot of pain tonight my back is killing me and I have a doosy of a headache to. STRESS.... So I have until tuesday to come up with the rest of the jobs for this week then I have to start on 30 more hours for next week which is due friday. I am mega stressing here. I am going to loose it soon if this crap dont stop. I am so tired of this crap happening to me, life sucks.
justletmebe
justletmebe
(((((kittycat)))) I'm sorry you had such a bad day : ( is there anything you could do for yourself tonight to calm a bit? Maybe even something to take the edge off like a prn?
BabyShelby
BabyShelby
Kitty~~

I'm sorry you're so upset. What did your case manager say?
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
It was to late to talk to my case manager it was like after 3 and she was gone so I will call her or maybe even go there MOn.
No I do not have anything to take to calm down. The only thing I can take I take at bedtime which is the Remron.. I am going to have a big bowl of chocolate icecream in a few min yum comfort food. This just pisses me off thinking about this whole thing it is so stupid. They dont understand or care how you feel or what you are going through,they could care less.
doorknob
doorknob
you are right they don't care. It's because they still don't believe in mental illness in your state. Or they believe too many people are faking mental illness to get on disability and not have to work.

Which ever one it's hurting the people who need it the most as always.

Sorry you are going through this just do the best you can eventually it will work it's self out.
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I am doing my best but it is so hard to keep filling out these damn job app and so many of them at that. I just feel it is such a wast of time. I am trying though thats all I can do. If I dont do it I dont do it I wont get back on medicaid or anything then and I will be scewed then owell nothing new thats the way my luck is.
deleted_user
deleted_user
If it's the law in your state and a requirement to whatever you are filing for, why not just do it with a good attitude?? I promise, you will feel better at night when you know you have given your best.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am sorry you have to do this. What state are you from? Something like that if you have to put in 30 hours could trigger me. What part of "disability" don't they understand?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Gosh tht stinks man. Idk wht it is tht u r filing for but I understand useless paperwork requirements. It sorta makes me feel like im drowning.

Good luck!!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Sorry you've had such a rough week kitty... I hope you can calm down for the weekend sweetie.. Once you talk with your caseworker things just may be cleared up...
Perhaps your pdoc could take more steps in your behalf..
Big hug of comfort for you and a blessing..x
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I am from nj and this state sucks. I am trying to get back on medicaid and foodstamps right now but eventually going to try to get SSI or disability if I can. I know they don't understand the word "disability" they dont care. I do feel like I am drowning to yes and sicking fast. I am going to try to do some more jobs searches today and see what I come up with. I can only sit here for so long and my back starts to hurt and my attention span is nill.
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