Sans the alcohol, I've been in very similar spots as you tats. I'm on my own now, but when I had a wife, her 2 kids, and our son I used to let crap like that turn my world upside down. If I was back then I honestly could not say what I'd do now. I do the ultra rapid cycling like you, tats, and looks like we both have ocd along for the ride. That ocd plays a huge part in the cycling of our bp. Doesn't that suck? 2 fun illnesses for the price of one or something like that. I still let things that seem so very insignificant or petty to others cause havoc in my life. I wish that I had a solid solution, but I don't. Things in my current life still get the better of me and it makes no difference that others say not to worry about it, because I desperately do.

I will say this as a fellow ultra rapid cycler, THIS TOO SHALL PASS. Of course that passing may take less than a day or more than a week, but for me it's over then a new one begins soon after. Then once more THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

Good luck tats, keep your arms wrapped around something solid since these frakin cycles are marching one after the other.

Big big hug for ya sweetie.. the things that bother one don't always seem like anything special to another...
Im like you I like things neat and orderly.. my room mate drives me nuts sometimes smile.. as he doesn't see it at all.. and I really believe that.. he doesn't see it..
We can't make others like ourselves.. we just have to let some of it go....we'll never be able to control anyone but ourselves... I hope the day improves for you...and you soon feel better...xo

I sometimes have to have a big argument with my bf over needing him to pick up all his crap off the floor so I can vacuum.

He goes apeshit if I move it. Luckily he moves it now after being asked a few times and me getting mad. The next step would be me throwing it all in his room.

Sounds like you need to set boundaries. I don't know who it is in your life leaving mess everywhere, but maybe you stuffing it all in a bag or box and throwing it in their room or in the bin might get the message across?

I try to remember at times like those how control is an illusion & the only person responsible for my happiness (or any other feeling) is ME. I was in the line at Wal-Mart the other day (NOT that I am comparing the experience, by any means) and started getting frustrated at the crazy lines. Then I laughed at myself.... reminded myself that I was in no hurry, that my time isn't any more important than any one else's, and smiled. LOL, I almost cracked a beer I had in my cart, but don't think that would've gone over too well... anyway, my point is: Sometimes you have to remember to smile and be happy inwardly, because whether they improve or not, you are left with your own feelings, and they could be totally oblivious and smiling inwardly themselves... despite how you feel. Good Luck!

I wholeheartedly appreciate everyone's input and will take from each one tidbits of awesome support and help!!!

You guys have helped me to step back and smell the roses and see what is really important. My ocd really gets in the way when it comes to a clean environment and that is what helped to get me so po'd at that time. Takes alot of work and self talk and sometimes I just get sooooo tired of talking to myself ya know??

BUT, it did pass....thanks freethnkr for reminding me it does.....and really thanks to all of you for posting and helping me out alot. I hope you all had and are having a Happy Holiday and finding peace in your day!!!

the day by day beeper way!!!

Running around the block until you pass out from exhaustion often works. Your burn a lot of calories and its good for your heart. Kind of heart to be in a full manic state when your that tired.