I wanted to ask everyone what is your experiences with a mental health hospital — looking to gauge my experiences against others.
For me, it was a locked wing, open bedroom door, and observed existence. Every door was locked, and we were escorted everywhere with a nurse in the front and back. They would count heads when we got to the place we needed to go, which always seemed like many locked doors. I remember the sound the locks made. I was on suicide watch the whole time (four weeks) and was observed continuously... and I mean continuously. We got to go outside twice a day for about ten minutes or so. We didn't have much, and this was the highlight of each day. We could call, and there was a single computer for outside email. That was pretty nice. I always felt demeaned and like a criminal the whole time. My seniority did not help... but at least I was put in a single room. Regulations about billeting officers with enlisted and I was the only officer there. Not sure that I came out better or if it just was time. Time seemed to stop and stand still when I was inside. It was some artificial world.
I'm simply going to cut calories out. Let's see if I can get my six pack back.
I feel so alone, I'm depressed, my anxiety is out of control and so many people don't bother with me anymore, I feel so useless and worthless.