Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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High functioning mess

TC40
TC40

I am a high functioning mess. I feel like a complete hairball. I can't remember anything. I feel like I screw everything up. I am trying so hard to feel better. All I want to do is sleep. I work full time and it is an extremely stressful and toxic environment. I'm trying to find another job. I feel like throwing the key to my apartment on the counter and running away. I fantasize about it, but I AM TERRIFIED of change. I don't know what I would do or go.  I'm just feeling overwhelmed.   Thank you for listening.  

mlr0853
mlr0853
Hi TC, good to see you! Sorry you are having such a rough time! Winter Sucks where mood is involved and for me, motivation for anything, never mind huge changes! I guess the job you interviewed for didn't work out...sorry about that! Sometimes just sitting still with some calming music and paper and pen helps me to sort out what I want/don't want and make very small goals. Hard to do when depressed. Good for you to go to work everyday despite toxic environment. Lately I've been watching TED talks on Utube to avoid numbing with computer games...I type in a subject, whamo...lots of stuff to look at or listen to...best to you! sent you a friend request quite some time ago...ml
arfie
arfie
"High Functioning Mess" Hm-m-m-m. . . Good summary for most of our world culture's, I think.

Back to your thread. . .

Sometimes I can simultaneously appease that urge to run away and gain some stress relief with an aimless drive or an in depth escape fantasy. Not sure why, but I have an urge to share one of the sites I enjoyed during my last escape fantasy to Caracas, Venezuela. Tal vez algun dia. . .

http://www.viviun.com/Real_Estate/Venezuela/

Glad you at least got a good vent in. Hope you get to feeling better soon.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you and a blessing..... xo
MoobbusT
MoobbusT
I like Jan's approach. Have a hug and a blessing!
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