Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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HannaHana 02/27/2008

I've been on thee downward spiral. I sit here day after day just hating myself, my home, my life in general. I constantly question my life's worth, and have been/am thinking of the unthinkable. I want to live, just not like this.

Please help me, remind me why I'm doing this. My kids aren't even enough for me anymore, I think they'd be better off without me. And please don't tell me to pray to God...I'm way past putting any faith in him.

Thanks in advance.

deleted_user 02/28/2008

Hanna! WE need you!!! PLEASE look for a hotline #. Where do you live? I will look for you if you need that help, dear! Do you have a family doctor? They might be able to do something. I know you don't have insurance (Been there too -sucks!) I made do with samples of Lexapro -although it wasn't much help it was better than nothing. Hotline is probably your best solution for immediate response. Doesn't your pdoc have an emergency contact #? Please hang in there. Love, Veronica XXXXXX

deleted_user 02/28/2008

I don't know about you, but whenever there is a change in my life, ie move, job, etc, I deal with it by getting depressed. I don't know why, that is just the way it works out.

I know there is really nothing that can change the way you are feeling right now. Know that there are people who will value you while you are unable to value yourself.

I won't say love. That word is overused and often mistrusted.

I value you as a human being. You add to my life with your experience, strength and hope. I pray (to many spirits) that you will be around for a long, long time.

If you need more affirmations, please feel free to message me. I am not a sappy person, but when a fellow human being is hurting, especially one I know to have extreme value, I will do what it takes to help them.

Hang in there Hanna, this too is passing.

HannaHana 02/28/2008

I spent a 1/2 hour trying the crisis line for this area, the line was busy. I nearly went to the ER, but I know myself, and I would demand to be released in less than 24 hours.

I made it through the night. I know I'm worth something, just don't feel like it. I'm trying to suck it up, b/c I get the kids back in a couple of hours, even though I'm not ready.

Marilyanna 02/28/2008

Can you jst go to bed woth some of your drugs and wake up dif thats what I do

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