Very glad to read all is Done...what a journey you were on....and Once Again....ya Got Your Self Through the fear and did what had to be done! WTG girlfriend...wishing you sweet dreams..(Hugs) and a speedy recovery time!

day 2 and still thanking the universe for the wonders of modern meds yesterday, if it hadn't been for the extra pain meds, xanax and ativan I would never have gotten through it added to a sleeping pill I took last night along with a few drinks. I got about six hrs sleep and it was great. today i am back to my normal meds with so far 1 tramadol taken 9hrs ago and all is fine so long as i don't move my head around too much. wolfgang is being great with coffee and croissants just landed on my table!

Gentle hug sweetie.... I'm so glad it's over with.... I hope you heal quickly .... Let us know when you get the results .... xo

today I gathered all my courage to change the dressing and got a bit of a shock when i found that the wound stretches from the corner of my eye right down to the bottom of my nose. I was expecting about 1cm instead of 3 or 4cm plus the one on my lip and cheek which are both small. am also worn out which i was not expecting either. but still today is better than yesterday and hopefully this will continue to be the case tomorrow. and my eye is developing some really beautiful colours! lol

Thanks for the update Irish! Glad to hear it went a bit better than you anticipated....((((hugs))))

saturday morning and five days in and so glad that the terror of last saturday is no longer with me. Now I just have to find the courage to leave the room in wolfgang's and drive the three hours back home where i can safely settle into my own room until wednesday when i have to go and get some stitches out. It would be wonderful to have a little magic and just click my fingers and be home! looking forward to seeing gearoid and Mo!

i hope your results show that you have nothing to fear and that you'll be healthy come the future. i know that desire to cut when you become anxious. just keep working through it and distracting yourself from the urge. find other things to channel it into - things that are productive and healthy. good luck and keep hanging in there!

Hugs.

I got home yesterday and even called into visiting my quadriplegic brother in his home on the way for an hour which was good as i had seen him for a few weeks. Got a big welcome from Mo who has hardly left my side since I came home even slept on my bed last night instead of my sons putting her head up at 6am when i was having my first cup of coffee as if to say 'yes things are as they should be!.' stopped taking the tramadol for the face pain and back to just lidocaine patches for fibro so i just have my 'normal' pain levels to deal with which is wonderful! ha ha. the good thing is that i just have to think of the pain of the surgery to be right back there and the need for self harm is immediately curbed - long may that last. It is good to be finally feeling something other than numbness even if this is what it took. something good in everything I guess.
my son did nothing while I was away, I don't think he even swept the kitchen floor and the towels I left in the dryer were just folded on the kitchen table. no meal or anything ready for me. very disappointing so i just had some toast and went to bed with my pot of coffee. am back to hibernating today! but yay it is damn good to be at home in my own bed.