Big hug for you TC.....I'm sorry that you're struggling..... xo

Are you doing anything different lately? Have you been to the library, or that strange eclectic store nearby lately? I don't know where you live or anything else but it seems that sort of business isn't far from anyone these days. You gotta get off the wheel sometimes and wander a bit.

Gentle empathy, TC. I know that feeling entirely too well. It typically launches my over-developed flight reflexes. Alas, wherever I land, the feeling still finds me anew, eventually, even when I have managed to find what I thought I wanted for the perfect life. I am currently in that very position. After entirely too much time in the not-working rut, I started a dream project back in October. In recent weeks I have been whelmed with feelings that the project is way more than I can handle. Where's my comfy hidey hole? Hope the rock for covering that hole is still there.

BSB's suggestion for getting off that wheel for smaller, more manageable wandering is my own best remedy for it. Just a remedy, though. I am not sure this one has a cure in my own strictly personals. Methinks that "better" is the best I can hope for on this one.

So sorry you are having such a hard time. Big Hugs!!

Better is always hope

I am living very meagerly. I am only making minimum wage. I have 15.00 to last me until NEXT Friday. My secondary medicaid will be yanked shortly because minimum wage went up and it will put me over the income guidelines (which is TOTAL SHIT! ) right now it is picking up what my work insurance doesn't cover. When I lose medicaid, idk HOW I am going to live. J Take SO MUCH medication. In addition to BP, I am diabetic, have thyroid issues and sleep apnea. I JUST want to go off all of my meds one by one. I want to be that person who takes vitamins everyday. Not the person whose medical needs are going to make it impossible to afford to eat.....

I've seen this same situation over and over in other people.
It tears my heart out every time.
I am so sorry you are in this crap, neck deep.
There may be help you don't know about. Most people are scared of them, but ask a social worker to help figure things out. They really aren't there just to take your kids away. They hate having to do that. They also know of what parts of the system could help you.

TC I'm sorry that your struggling. The feeling of being trapped is all to real and unnerving. Sending love and light out to you. Running the wheel with ya.

hope you feel better soon

Sorry TC, I hope that things will improve for you.