Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Lithium works really great-too bad I can't be on it-I can't take the side effects of the nausea. Taking depakote-- am just as depressed as I was when I went in. It's the same stuff but a different day. Hubby is still incredibly mean to me. Things are just getting to hard to bear. I want to dissapear forever. Go somwhere where no one can say something mean to me. Hubby thinks that my daughter has a right to be mad at me for getting help and being put in the hospital for a week. I played video games with her all night long last night-and she still insists I'm some huge failure. She's mad at me for being mentally ill. As if I could do something about my illness. I can't. I wish people would just shut up. I'm in tears and I am crying again. It's just like it was before I left. I hurt my back cleaning the kitchen tonight and If I complain people get mad at me for complaining. It's not my fault I have degenerative arthritis. It's my fault that I have scoliosis though. If I would have taken better care of my back I might not be in as much pain today. I don't have a support system and I can't change the fact that I'm sick. My husband knew I was bipolar before he married me. So I don't know what to do. I can't change the fact that I am depressed. I don't want to go back into the hospital. But if people don't realize I can't change the fact that I am insane--I don't know what I am going to do. My daughter's biggest fear is that she will inherit my mood disorder and never be able to escape it and pass it on to her kids.
If I were gone, I don't really think my family would care either way.
If I were gone, I don't really think my family would care either way.
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
Sorry hgad to let my cat in.....
People around you can be absolutely horrible sometimes and that can be SO difficult to deal with especially when you dont have support. After a while sometimes you just have to be your own best friend and if no one else is kind to you be kind to yourself because in the end that's the one thing you have no matter what.
Unfortunately there isn't any medication that will stop people from saying nasty things. And its understandable to sometimes feel absolutely powerless to the illnesses we fight. Although you have no control over the fact that you have bipolar, and it would be insane to ask you to have complete control over that. What you can control though, is what you do to cope with all these things around you. Are you in any kind of therapy? It can compliment the medication really well and help you learn new ways to deal with life when it gets hard.
As far as your husband, I have no ideas there at the moment. Your daughter, however, I feel like I can say something on.
I really dont think you should take personally the negativity your daughter is throwing at you even though that can be a very difficult thing to do especially if you dont have a lot of experience with it. I dont know how old she is, but Im going to guess shes not an adult yet. Even if she was, this would still apply.
I think that she really is internalizing a lot of what is going on around her. You going into the hospital was a very wise decision. Getting help is never a bad thing. In fact it shows self awareness and will power. Your daughter is probably very scared. She is most likely pretty worried about you, even if she expresses that in a cold way. Adding on the fact that she needs to come to terms with the possibility of her having similar problems its a lot to deal with for her as well. Basically what Im saying is she is probably showing a lot of negativity towards you but it is really just her way of processing whats happening and I really think when it comes down to it she cares about you a lot.
Im not really sure about medication suggestions but definitely make an appointment to get them tweaked.
Sorry for the length ^^'