*hug*

That must be tough. Usually there is a denial period, but at least you truly know WHY you are experiencing a continuous roller coaster. I hope the experiencing of accepting comes easily.

Thanks jedigirl.
Just told my dad and he said he was relieved because it helps him understand why i was the way i was when i was growing up.
Hoping that I can move on now. Dr starting me on depokote so will have to wait and see how it goes

I suggest an exercise program to help with the medication, since I've heard Depakote causes some weight gain.

I went through a denial period and refused to take any meds. It only lead to a major depressive episode and that is when I started my meds. Good luck!

it does take some time. i wish you luck. :)

Thank you everyone x re exercise mm will have to do something although its not fun for me

I can understand that it will take some time to accept this lifelong depressive diagnosis.

Been there and done that. I used my therapy to help me get past it. Might as well do something with therapy.

I was delighted to get my diagnosis. I was just so different, and it was a relief to know it was a disease and could be treated.

But I think your denial and shock if pretty well the normal response to finding out you have a disease - any life changing disease. You will go through some stages of grief, but in the end, you will find acceptance, for the most part. Welcome to the club!

Good luck. Now you can get the treatment you need. Do you have a therapist? It might help you deal with the diagnosis

The best advice I can give is try NOT to look at your dx as a death sentence, but as a set back.

Though this is a life long illness, it doesn't have to control or destroy your life. With treatment and open mind and willingness you can still have a productive relatively happy life.

There are many life long illness that people live through and still are OK, some forms of cancer, Hepatitis C, Diabetes, and the list goes on.

You CAN be OK.

Yes, what a hard pill to swallow. I too was relieved in a way, like some others, when I was Dx because it was intolerable for me to believe that my poor moral character led me to do so much of what I had done.

The years since have been more difficult. One think I've found is that I so desperately want everyone around me to tell me that the BP Dx is true and right (like friends and family) and the people like pdocs and tdocs who tell me the Dx explains a lot I love to completely disagree with and ignore.

It's confusing at times and I didn't know up from down but the rumination has leveled out, things have changed, and what seemed really important right after Dx has lost some importance.

Bottom line: I wish I had been nicer to myself, more accepting, given myself more time to just absorb things.

Good luck! and welcome welcome.

My "denial period" must have occurred before I was diagnosed.

At first I didn't see it, but finally realized that SOMETHING was indeed gone wrong, and submitted myself to my family's requests that I be evaluated.

For me, it was a great relief to learn that that something had a name, and could be treated.

- KK

I am just sat sobbing at the minute -

*hugs*

i am sure this is hard to take even though you already knew. im in a similar position myself. going to see the dr on friday will probably have to deal with the same sort of reaction

i hope you're okay, just know that the label doesnt have to mean anything other than just a name for what you're going through. you're still the same you. xx

Ok I'm confused about this. Your care worker told u?? I thought it would have been a p.doc. who would dx you & give you a script ?? Are you having therapy aswell or are you on a stupid NHS waiting list for it? Good luck with everything!