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God's Love

HannaHana
HannaHana
If you know me...you would know that I have had an extreme hatred of God for the past 5 years. I would roll my eyes at the very thought of God and snicker at those who blindly believed in Him.

I have recently been receiving signs from God. Not that I'm seeing things or hearing things. Obvious signs from God that had to be put bluntly in my face for me to start questioning if it was true or not.
When I finally allowed myself to believe that these were signs from God, I felt like I was filled with love...as if the 5 years of repelling God's love was all being let into me.

Some people assume I'm in a manic phase, but I think that God finally is paying me some attention...and I'm finally giving him some of my attention as well.

I assume that any replies from people saying I'm manic are those who have turned their backs on God b/c of the horrible shit that has happened (including BP)...and those who are happy for me are those who I thought were being blindly led by faith.

I'm happy to have a little faith again...and just wanted to share.
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Some people find a great deal of comfort in their faith, whether it be Christianity or some other faith. And it is not anyone's place to question your faith or mock you for your beliefs.

I envy you your peace.
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I am glad you have finally found the peace and love of God. It doesn't mean all your troubles will go away but at least you know you have God there for you no matter what. I am glad you are starting to listen to Him. It can be a big comfort.
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Your crazy woman :P
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Happy for you in experiencing peace and serenity :) ~hugs :)
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Hanna, I am very happy for you. I have received signs from God all through the holiday season. And the peace - when I be still and listen. When I can't feel the presence of God is when I have turned my back on Him.

I also think I am getting some special attention right now, because this is the first Christmas my mother has spent with Jesus. I know she is looking out for me.
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I am glad you have found some of God's love. I have questioned my faith for the past year or so, but I'm leaning toward the fact that God loves me. I'm glad you find comfort in this.
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Yes, God's love is wonderful. It is man and society, not God which ruins things for us. God is peace and love...As the Episcopals say: "Thanks be to God!!"
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I really liked on of our illustrious CF ACouriousFish defination of Schizoaffective and Bipolar disorder. My small mind could actually grasp most of it. I will search back 25 pages and hope like hell I can find it. Then I will bump it up.
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Try this. It is lengthy but has a lot of information that may help you. I printed it so I could relax and read it but I forgot where I put it?

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Family_and_Friends_of_Bipolar/forum/10072397-schizoaffective-disorder-information
ZanyBeeper
ZanyBeeper
I miss God's love. I can't feel it anymore. :( Glad for you though, Hanna. Walk in peace.
beckyp
beckyp
Glad you have started feeling God's love again. I went through a period in my life where I hated God too, but came out of it and realized he had never left me. He was actually helping through my hate. I like the scripture, "Be still and know that I am God".
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I'm happy for you, Hanna, and you don't sound manic to me. I think God is reaching out to you and your heart has been receptive.
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Good for you Hanna.

Not a god person myself.......More of a nature lover.
Christopher22
Christopher22
So glad to hear that you've opened your heart to him, it wouldn't be possible unless you had become willing and sometimes willingness is all he needs.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Faith can move mountains that is for sure... I believe God uses things in our lives to help bring us to him.. it is what happened to me as well about 20 years ago and Ive never looked for another way..x
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