yeah my mum would like a snitch. She only knows when I'm using when I call her and i'm high. For some reason she can tell. Perhaps I am to talkative. I don't know but there is nothing getting passed my mum.

Mate....she is your MUM...... Mum's know EVERYTHING about their kids.

Well last of the stash gone and not going to buy anymore so I'm officially on the straight and narrow. No drugs. I feel impowered. Yeah....and there was much rejoicing.......

Rehab sounds like a good idea for you if you continue to have relapses. I'm a recovered alcoholic so I can relate to your alcohol addiction. You have to take it one day at a time and if you don't decide to go into rehab try AA, That's how I sobered up. Good luck

dangit, Mage, I have a carb-chocolate addiction...and I mean, sometimes, I binge and CAN'T stop until the box of cereal, or chocolate is G-O-N-E...I don't know what the rest is like, but I do understand the can't-stop part. Both of my parents were alcoholics, as well as my dad BP, (don't know about my mom, but she definitely was undiagnosed-SOMETHING)...my current BF is also fighting alcohol and having additional mental issues. Some people can go it alone, but most don't, or can't....so please don't give up hope if you can't kick it yourself. Keep looking for support groups, they are all different, even within the same organization...if one doesn't work for you, try another....(not trying to tell you what to do, but don't know how else to say it, sorry)...

thanks folks for the words of encouragement and advice. I wil take it all into consideration.

i had a coke problem for years and it majorly fucked with my bp. it turned me into a completely different person and almost ruined my life. it's a hard habit to break, but you've got to if you ever want to have a chance at being in charge of your bp. go to an na meeting, look into rehab. good luck to you.

Can't relate to the coke, but i was addicted to heroin for nearly 30 yrs.
NA worked for me after 18 rehabs. And it took me 5 yrs to get a 1 year coin. The first year you get coins nearly every 30 days, and then you have to wait an entire year for recognition. Took 5 years to figure out why i couldn't make it to a year, but now all is good.

You just need what we in the 12 step programs call a moment of clarity. Best advice is HALT.......if your hungry, angry, lonely or tired.........you'll want to use. So, eat, meditate, sleep and get a dog/cat/ferret if you live alone......and find a sponsor that will answer his phone.

I dont have much to add seems like everybody who replied has said basically what I'd say.

Just wanted to give ya some support. Also to let ya know Im here for ya if you need/want to talk.

Good luck!!!

Yo RD, it was me with 30yrs on heroin, and despite popular belief, one can maintain on opiates, it's called daily moderation. Control tends to come easy to those of us who choose to be addicted to depressants.

Besides the fact we can always take amphetamines when appointments interfere with having our nose in our pockets, doing smack is not only relaxing, it saves on plastic surgery expenses.

Ooopps, simultaneous post .............sorry RD.

i fall all the time with pills pain kills to be precious there just a feel good thing i think it going to lead me to a crash but instead of stopping i take more i in the ssame boat so your not alone but if your stronger enought to get help go for it this can lead to sytmoms and thinks getting worse when your sober the thought of getting high to escape instead of just facing your promblem with some help do you talk to some one that can help

Keeping your job at all costs? You spend your hard earned cash on that junk?

No one can help you if you don't want to be helped yet. You have to really really want to be helped. More than anything else in your life or it usually won't work for you.

You have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired.

If you plan to go to hell go to hell in a handbasket and smoke the shit.

I am not going to lecture you, I too am an addict. You have to be ready and I mean ready to quit. If there are any doubts in your mind then you are not ready. Just be safe......