Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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MageMichael 04/12/2011

Well I have fallen off the wagon. Got drunk and now I'm doing line after line of coke. It's addicting! The more you do the more you want to do. Well so much for my week of sobriety. But on the upside I feell a whole lot better. I'm in a good mode instead of depressed. You know if I was serious I'd quit buying the crap. I need to get serious about this but sadly I'm having a hard time with it. Perhaps I need to go to a rehap place. I'm not sure how that works with my employer. I have to keep my job at all costs. Hopelessly addicted.
Mage

MageMichael 04/12/2011

That was supposed to say Fell off the wagon. Can't even write.

jimlucky1 04/12/2011

Drinking leaves you open to your other adictions I had the same problem when I drank in the past.

Most employers cant fire you if you go to rehab.Some employers have rehab programs already set up for thier employees if needed.

Try joining a group like AA or CA online or offline.

I am sorry to hear that you are going threw this as I have ben thier myslf and its very painfull.

tommymott 04/12/2011

You can afford coke? Then I guess you can afford the Betty Ford Clinic. No good will come of boozing and snorting, but you're in charge. Take care.

MageMichael 04/12/2011

It's hard because yes can afford it but it really reaks havoc with my BP. Makes me hypomanic and isn't a good mix. Now I am hypo and already called a bunch of people. So they now know I'm wired. This is really hard to kick since it puts me in a good mood.

deleted_user 04/12/2011

It puts you in a good mood now, but how do you feel when you wake up in the morning? You set yourself up for rapid cycling...

MageMichael 04/12/2011

fuck I'm out of coke. So do it live with this or call my dealer.......I'm going to try and live with it. This is a new step for me.

deleted_user 04/12/2011

I had no idea this was a part of you MM.

All I can say is PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE do without.

MageMichael 04/12/2011

well I'm out so I guess I can do without. It's just a habit afterall. So I hope to be clean soon. I refuse to buy anymore.

MageMichael 04/12/2011

Oh I feel so bad that i have disappointed my favorite assuie. Love ya mushroom.

deleted_user 04/12/2011

You didn't disappointment me - You surprised me. Only because I didn't know about it.

**hugs**

MageMichael 04/12/2011

I'm goiing to get clean I promise. I have help form here and from my family. They want me to be happy and without drugs. My mom is going to kick my ass if I don't get this under control. Disappointing my mom is not something I take lightly.

deleted_user 04/12/2011

Maybe I should ask for your Mum's contact details....lol

deleted_user 04/12/2011

Just to MAKE "you" make your Mum proud

BipolarPrincess 04/12/2011

I know how you feel just in a different way. Instead of
illegal drugs or legal drugs my weakness is food.

As the music video says you have been a very bad girl

ga ga a very very bad girl.

I have

soda addiction
salt addiction
butter addiction
and sugar addiction.

I am feeling just as bad as you.

Maybe we should be friends. =)

MageMichael 04/12/2011

Bipolar Princess I know how you feel about your additions. I suffer from them too. It is dificult to break the cycle. I'm determined so are you?

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