Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I've been on disability for about a decade now and I often get subtle signs that other people think I should be working. I find it quite hurtful. Nonetheless, it makes me question myself. Do I have a moral obligation to try to work in spite of my mental illness? I know others who have it about as bad as me and are still able to work. Perhaps I'm on the borderline between able and unable. What I do know for sure is that I am miserable when I have a job. I worked from the time I was 16 to about 21. I hated every minute of it. I hated it even when I was hypomanic. When I was in a depression, I would sometimes fantasize about killing myself after work. The last job I worked at fired me because I asked to go home because I was so depressed that I couldn't handle it. I was still under their 90 day probaitionary period for new hires. My girlfriend at the time convinced me to admit myself to the mental hospital. I got out after a few days. a day later I cut my wrists open. they took me back in and helped me get on disability. The thought of going back to work is almost unbarable. I'm so much happier now. I have almost no stress in my life which keeps my BP from getting too bad. People see me all happy and well put together, so they question my need for disability. Even after telling them what I've written here they still question. What do I do?
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Do you trust yourself? If you do, then you are making the best possible decision for you - people are wrapped up in their own lives- don't fall into the belief that they care what you are doing- live your life fully- you only get one-- if people are not supportive, spend less time with them-- find your tribe- the people that empathize and get where you are coming from-- I hope you feel better- take care of yourself- hugs!
If you want to get out more and start to do something what about some volunteer work?
Then you could say when you are available and how much you're available?
Are you able to make any money whilst on disability ?... If you're able to work a little and wanted to try maybe try and find something with more casual hours
Big hug Gare..... I would consider not discussing your health and disability with people who aren't supportive......xo
Just to be able to say you're happy is a HUGE win! Whatever you're doing, keep doing it. If you feel the need to challenge yourself or do something in a low stress environment, maybe look into some volunteer work.