The avatar on FB of who you cant figure out who it is - refering to our phone call - god we just hung up - blonde moment lol *ducks* the glad to be back is a thanks for the readd

oh DUH!! Yeah brain fart


Oh and it was not my mind playing tricks on me...it was a baby mouse cause killer cat trapped it and is eating it.

LOL is it a giant baby mouse? Knowing you it is the size of a kitten Bit would give birth to

Murphy do you have facebook and if you do do I have you as a friend?

no she only gets the little ones...Jeff will have to find the carcass when he gets home to throw it away cause I won't touch it...she is in there slinging it around on the floor.

Yes, you are my friend:)
I will msg you my name.

LOL okies thanks on that one as gonna ask you if you would help us out over there with something

Ah gottcha Soss glad to see you arent exaggerating their size any more *giggles*

naw but I still don't like touching them...

dead or alive? Alive they are just little fuzzy creatures.

Good lord are you watching Private Practice now they want to turn off machine on someone. . . here comes another whole set of tears

Ok, sorry to come barging in with my problems, but I can't make a thread. They're watching me, and I'm really upset.

Today I had an eye exam and I was with my dad and I was filling out the form and where it said "psychiatric" I Xed yes and wrote "bipolar, anxiety, OCD." then my dad tells me that I'm not bipolar, and that my pdoc told him I wasn't bipolar, but I asked my pdoc a while ago because he tended to waffle and he said I had bipolar disorder NOS. Then he said I don't need to "wear it like a badge" and "it's just an eye exam" and told me not to write my new medication down. So I didn't and tried not to freak out in the office and the eye doctor ended up asking me and I ended up telling him anyway. Then he referred me to a "retinal specialist" because I've been seeing black spots and white streaks of light in front of my eyes for a few weeks now and he said that there was a possibility that my retina could be detaching, and when I told my dad, he just said "Oh, I thought that stopped" because I just stopped talking to him about it, then proceeds to tell me that my retina is NOT detaching because he KNOWS people with detached retinas.

Ok, just needed to get that out. Happy nicotine time and back to your usually scheduled Amanda.

ahh, Thursday night shows- watched.
big bowl of ice cream- check
loads of tissues- check

my night has been successful.

Amanda I am sorry....I hope that it isn't happening with your retina...and sorry about your dad.

Raven i havent started that one yet..don't know though if I can handle it or not...

WB MK

Amanda thats terrible and you can make any post here you want hun its all ours . . .but who is watching you?

OK Murphy is gonna do the FB page but if anyone would be willing to Co edit with her I am sure she would be appreciative of the help

Amanda. sorry to hear about your eye. I hope that's not what the problem is!

Hiya MK!!

Okay will have to watch private tomorrow...KY is playing

My dad and his fiance. She has a DS page and we're friends and I very well can't just defriend her. I always have to censor myself when I make my own posts and write my journals because I know they're watching.

I just feel like my dad basically feels, "Ok, we've indulged her enough in this 'bipolar' thing, now it's time for her to stop." I just hope for his sake nothing serious happens again to me. Oh wait, that would just be me trying to get attention.

And he always knows someone who's experiencing things I might have. High iron? Oh, your mom has that, and she's fine. Acid reflux? Both of us have that--take your meds and shut up.

Thanks so much guys, for being there for me. I'm just having a rough night and I don't feel like anyone in my real life is willing to hear any more from me. I really hope my retina's not detaching too.