Yes but aren't we all lunatics??

You arent even close to my calliber of crazy and you know this
GRINS . . .

I think I am getting close though.

God run for the hilss then quickly run away run away

Hello Raven and Sara
Turned out my therapy appointment was this morning, so I raced over to it this morning. Went well. She wants me to do a partial hospitalization/intesive outpatient program now...don't know how I feel about that. It's because of the suicidal thing the other night and the violent side of me lately. Not like me and she's worried this mixed is really bad and I'm not handling it well...I need everyday care right now she thinks.

I just did that like 2 months ago, and I feel like a failure having to go back again, even though it's for a different issue this time.
So that's what's going on with me. How are you my loves?

Oh I am just wonderful. . . . my happy manic ass is back to being happy tho not sure the CC customer service people would think so lol see what happens when Raven runs out of smokes. .

Sorry to hear about you having to do day services - not sure how I would handle that one either - thats a lie I know how I would handle it but trying to remain partially positive for your sake :) (thinking tho I just gave myself away lol xo)

haha. that's ok.
I don't know....I guess if it helps, I'll be happy....but I feel like the days when I'm there and I'm manic or hypo, I'm going to be off the walls and not want to be couped up or told what to do. lol.

So I'm going to be going in there and they'll be like how would you rate your mood last night, and I'll say, a 2 and a 9....because it changes that much that quickly.

At least they didn't want to fully hospitalize me. That I can't handle right now.

There ya go thats the spirit :)

See being totally manic all the time I couldnt do it but thats my hyper ass and they would soon see and I would drive them nuts and probably show me the door - its happened before with paper work that says and I quote please stabilize her some before sending her back - the pyschitrist just shakes his/her head and then we are done with that idea

Yeah full hospitilization sucks I agree

hahaha. "please stabalize her"
isn't that part of the point of those programs???
I'm just going to try and be positive (since I'm up right now, lol) and thinking it's going to be good....and not trying to be too bummed that it's going to mess up my tv routine. haha

LOL they just didnt want to deal with me noone ever did shrugs and then they finally decided there was never gonna be a way to stabilize me not that it ever mattered to me one way or another - as long as the manic is kept at a semi manageable level


LOL@tv routine now there is serious fucking with your day eh

I know. how dare they not realize that I have a very scheduled day....with tv. And fitting a program like this in is a big sacrafice. lol.

Yes no shit. . . they couldn't fit you in say between 3 am and 8 am?

that would be perrrrfect. None of my shows are on then and it's not like I need the sleep most the time...I'm freaking part manic.
The depressed part of me can just sleep during meal times, since I'm not hungry anyways. haha.

And I'm laughing at the fact that I wrote part manic...like people say they're part irish or part german, I wrote I'm part manic. hahaha

Half breed?

hahaha. maybe.

I've been on the phone trying to get blood test results faxed over to my pdocs office. fun fun fun. nothing like being put on hold by a couple of places.