so iv been in this relationship for 3 years , it's started off amazing , to good to be true , and over time got worse and worse . He turned out being very controlling , constantly putting me down , streaming , cursing , calling me names and threatening to hurt and kill me , once even threatened to kill my kids . I'm 28 years old and finally ready to leave , but I'm scared to death to be on my own I have always been in relationships and have extreme anxiety / bipolar depression . I plan tomorrow to call a shelter for help and place to stay I don't work due to mental illness but don't get any kind of disability,just on welfare , even tho he is such an idiot to me I love and care about him and I don't know why . I need help , words of encouragement, I have nobody here besides him so will be completely alon until I get apartment and get my children back who are staying with there father , I'm terrified of all the changes that are about to happen !!
We have been married 25 years, I have lived through his porn addiction, the countless lies, an affair, almost loosing our business of 23 years because of his depression and then immigrating across the world to start all over again, through all of the above I have stuck by his side! The older he gets the more insecure, difficult, moody, irritable and super sensitive. I find myself constantly...
It has been a long time since on this site but I have hit a rough spot and just need support just very hesitant. I guess baby step is the way to go.