Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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malibumark 09/02/2018

I have schizoaffective disorder. Bipolar type.

I work real hard to keep responsible about my day, whether it's at work or

keeping the house in order.

I find sometimes I can manage my feelings and other times there will be ups and downs

which really makes me feel worthless and unable to cope so well (and so I feel just unlike others.)

Right now at least 'talking about it' reminds me that it hasn't been so bad for most of the day -

So I feel better from that thought - but the sense of dissaray I can feel can really make me feel anguish

and worthlessness. Right now I will focus on the positive sides of today and just keep busy best I can.

malibumark 09/02/2018

I know I have talked about this a lot. I guess just needed to reach out.

vivdbloom 09/03/2018

Hey, @malibumark,
My ups and downs do not necessarily make me feel "useless" - I would describe feelings of incompetence and lack of control. I might be functional - wake up early, go to class, go to work, see friends, etc. - but a whole lot is bubbling in my head making those tasks often torturous. It makes me feel like a demon is in control and I am not. You are definitely not alone in having negative feelings about your ups-and-downs.

Josie226 09/03/2018

I understand the useless feeling.I get it quite alot.Especially when I've been In a depressive episode which can last month's but also in a high period after ive come through it.Also when I'm just me and I'm well I can still feel useless I feel the illness can take alot out of you.To me you sound like a very strong and positive person who's doing the best she can.Just remember all the positive things about you and maybe write a list.

SullenKitty 09/03/2018

Vivd explains it perfectly for me. I'm probably considered high functioning even in my worst episodes. People dont often realize I'm as bad off as I really am. I dont feel strong, but maybe I am? I think you must be very strong, malibu.

malibumark 09/03/2018

thanks guys!

SunCloudJD 09/03/2018

Gentle hug sweetie..... I think you are an amazing human being...… You are kind and thoughtful..... Certainly not useless

Another hug while you're working it out Marky.....xo

malibumark 09/03/2018

thanks Jan.

Sunshinegirl0228 09/03/2018

Yeah the ups and downs are a bit disorienting. I just do my best to do what I have to do and that must be good enough for me

malibumark 09/03/2018

thanks kisses.

fireflywing 09/04/2018

You are not alone. I hope this passes. Much support to you!

Bekah_1995 09/04/2018

I get exactly what you mean. For me, just an example, I go from having everything in order and my house clean then there’s days, I just feel like I can’t do anything. Even calling the dr to fill my prescription feels like to much. I know it doesn’t make sense. I still haven’t found anything that just works to get me last feeling Iike that. I’ve just gotten used to expecting it I guess and just ride it out the best I can. I feel you completely.

malibumark 09/05/2018

thanks firely and Bekah!

Jenniferswe 09/06/2018

I feel useless a lot of the time. It's part of the disease. I'm very sorry you're feeling this way. Big hugs.

malibumark 09/06/2018

thanks Jennifer

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