Yes, I have long periods of depression. It's terrible. I'm sorry you're going through this. Finding a treatment that works for you isn't a easy as it sounds. Big hugs.

You are not alone. I don't walk in your shoes, I do breathe the air of depression daily. I try to look for small things, smile at a stranger, take in the big picture of my life and feel gratitude. In 2010, hospitalized for depression, a mental health tech said ''move a muscle to change a thought'...sitting and doing nothing feeds into my depression, moving gives me a sense of purpose and accomplishment.

Give yourself a Huge Pat on the back for pushing past your ??? and doing
??it?? anyway.

Big hug for you Beautiful.... I'm sorry you're struggling..... If the depression has been going on for a while I'd make an appt to see your pdoc…. You might need a med tweak......xo

I'm sorry you're feeling sad. It's good that you have work to relieve your sadness for at least a little. If the weekends are difficult you could work more hours or you could volunteer for a cause that you are passionate about. I used to volunteer for a nature center near my house and It was very fulfilling. I got to meet different types of people and it bolstered my self-worth. Or you could pick up a hobby! I love knitting and every Saturday I go to my local yarn shop where they have a free knitting group! The other knitters helped me become a better knitter and I made so many friends! I know it can be hard to get out of a deep depression but know that I'm pulling for you and I know you can get better!

I have long periods of depression. And I have had this for years. Suicidal thoughts were very often and some attempts. At my last job, I was in and out of the clinics for treatments on just about every major system as my depression destroyed nearly everything. I thought so many times about flagging down a nurse or doc. For nearly a year, I stopped functioning in my job. They paid me, but in 2018 I accomplished zero outside of converting oxygen to carbon dioxide.

How to get out? When you have that answer, please post it.

So, you are not alone. There are many of us in the dark right beside you. Sing out and we will answer.

I worry about my mortality actually. We are here for only a short while.

I also worry about my parents morality and my sisters.

There were many times I felt like not being around. I'd most likely disappear.... Nothing spectacular. But I'm around. Have to help the parents.

Do you ha e a therapist? When I’m in a bad depression it helps me to see her twice a week or more just to stay sane.
I’ve been as low as a person can get but please believe there is hope.

Heya, the last thing I want to do is rush to have an opinion. Depression is such a broad term. It can mean all sorts of different things to different people. If I understand so far you are saying you are sad and sometimes think about suicide? Also that you are feeling isolated and alone in your suffering.

What have you already tried that hasn't worked so I know what not to consider?

Hi beautifulworld - just want to send positive thoughts your way and let you know you are Not alone.

There's actually a term for the struggle to keep up a good front, to keep going, even when you're struggling and suffering inside...I can't remember the term! (rats)

But long term depression may cost you your health, so I'd agree with SunCloud that you should check with your pdoc, if possible, and see if you need a med tweak.

HUGS