im sorry sweet friend- not trying to intrude on your space- i saw you had posted here from the main forum- please know we all support you ok? we are all filling the bottom of the hole so you dont fall so far down. stand on our shoulders. borrow our candles and flashlights. move thru it if you need to- just know you arent alone ok? xoxo

Yes, I must agree that Depression is quite exhausting!!!! Are you bedeviled by constant Depression? I hope not. Before the last few months, I spent over a year depressed. I could hardly drag myself around.
Sorry you suffer from it. (((((Hugs)))))

Yes I can usually feel my depressions coming however as of late it seems like instead of deeper depression it's just a new low that I find. I've been isolating and staying in bed for well over 1/2 the day. I got better for about 2-3 days as in I wasn't so depressed and then all of the sudden the floor fell out from underneath me and I was falling like a person jumping out of a plane with no parachute.

A lot of times it creeps up on me & before I know it I just am not functioning at all, right now I am like that - I haven't left my house in two weeks at least. I have absolutely no appetite & I will just sit & stare in bed & cry.. Tis life for me..

That is a perfect explanation of the depression I feel, and what I, we, will eventually overcome

I understand what you mean. It happens to me also where out of nowhere I start feeling worse and worse and the tidal wave of depression comes over me. I usually force myself to get outside in fresh air and maybe have coffee with a friend. It doesn't always work, but I think if I do the slightest thing in the course of the day and attempt to beat my depression, I feel better.

I pray that you feel better and that you don't stay stuck at the bottom. Remember this too shall pass.

Yep, can feel myself sliding down and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Sorry you are down in the pit, know you are not alone.

It's the most exhausting thing about life. I becomes physically hard to pretend to be holding yourself together. One night I hit a breaking point because I literally couldn't pretend anymore.

And yes, falling into a spiral. I start to wonder if it ends. I keep waiting for something to snap me out of it.

I can usually sense when a depressed mood is coming on. I am usually exhausted if its a deep depression from the fact that I cannot sleep. Mine does not lift, however, but swings "up" into a mixed state or a form of dysphoria before I level.

I know it coming, i recognizie it, I'm withdrawing from people, don't want to leave the house, just really numb, it's like the rest of the world is in slow motion, and I'm just constantly breaking into tears, I feel like i'm a burden to everyone and that nothing ever works out in my life. I sat on the balcony the other night and really just wanted to jump off, I know I wouldn't, but I really wanted to. I know its just the depression, but I don't know how to stop it from coming, and I'm afraid that when it leaves, it will be followed by a manic episode, i'm also afraid to try an anti depressant because of side effects i've had in the past, i'll probably just ride this one out.

Oh yeah i can feel it...cuz i wont leave my bed for days.
You are not alone.
HUGS
dee

Yes - I can feel depression coming on and I can do little to stop it. I'm so sorry you are suffering.

Absolutely. Mine also slides in like a shadow fading to total darkness. Lasts for weeks or months. Then I wake one morning...or the middle of the afternoon to total sunshine. Unfortunately, the sunshine only lasts a day or two, then the shadow slides back into place, fading into total darkness. I may only have sunshine for a couple days a month, and crave it every day but it doesn't come.

I feel myself sinking internally when my triggers are hit and due to my circumstances it manifests itself. I'm usually always one degree under, making a small amount of ground to get to the point where I'll feel good in myself, for myself. Yet I rarely experience joy and that comes from focusing on an outside source for it all the time.

Dorothy Rowe, the Australian Psychologist and expert on Depression describes it as a prison we lock ourselves in, where we hold the key in our hands. We're just not always conscious of how much power we truly have over ourselves, and it is vital that people are listened to and given the chance to explore how they view the world and how they fit in it. Of course, sometimes the brain is truly damaged and then medications are the best chance of an ordinary life.

Either way, it's a cruel state to be in, with only the great appreciation of really knowing the contrast as a gift.

I realized that depression always comes after an "up" mode. Its kinda like being a kid the day after Christmas. I used to feel such despair with guilt over feeling so mentally and physically "spent". And that just breeds more despair. What cha gotta do is let the phase takes its course. Sleep, rest, do what your body and mind really need. And not feel guilty. Its your mind's way of saying, "whoa, slow down there!". I know when I've been living on pure adrenalin for days on end...tho with my meds I rarely get manic...(sigh) the days that follow I just hit a brick wall. I used to fight it, feel angry over it, the guilt, etc...yada, yada. Today, I just let myself take that much needed break. I still have to go to work, but when I get home, its "couch potato time"...or/and "geezer naps!". xxxx