Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Crashing and Suicide

hope20z
hope20z
I am getting more and more depressed and I think about suicide constantly, constantly, I day dream about it. It seems like the only way out. Does anyone know of a good chat room that I can find some pace. I know that this will effect my families and friends, but I am in so much pain and I am so sad. All I want to do is sleep and be lethargic and apathetic of life. So I don't know. I have experimented with overdosing on xanax and when i woke up the next morning I felt that if I would have pressed more I would have never woken up. It's just easy, fall asleep and never wake up. What's wrong with me?
hope20z
hope20z
I don't want chat rooms to enourage me I want them to discourage and help. I want to chat one on one with someone I just don't want to do it over the phone.
deleted_user
deleted_user
i think you need to talk to your doctor, if you are thinking of suicide constantly that's a danger sign, please get help
hugs
Andrea
deleted_user
deleted_user
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
All things will pass. Even your problems right now.

Death is not just sleeping imo.

It just isn't. Don't take your fate into your own hands.

Call upon your higher power to guide you. Even if you have never talked to Hum before.
deleted_user
deleted_user
wow, I understand completely , to fall asleep and not wake up is my dream too. It's hard to fight and even harder to deal with friends and loved ones because they just don't understand.
hope20z
hope20z
I don't call on a higher power and if I did it would be a she not a he.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yeah, I dont' know what to tell you, but you have my prayers. Hope.
Chanel22
Chanel22
if you are thinking about suicide all the time your meds most likely need tweaking and there are new ones out now and other ones you may react to even better than you already are or in addition to the ones you are currently on. I didn't want my pdoc to change my antipsychotic but he did and it was the best thing he could of done because it is fabulous for me.. and I totally agree a med change can destabilize you, but then again it could make you more stable than you have ever been in your life... so you have to risk it at times and trust your doctors. :hugs: It will get better - and you have been going through this off and on for awhile whether you notice it or not- I and others have noticed on the boards when you have posted before.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have been in this very headspace, for me it was 24/7 for years. But it did lead ultimately to the "act" and I'm only here because of the brilliance of an ICU medical team. I wouldn't want you to take that step and you do need intervention NOW. So call the emergency number, get an ambulance, or go to the ER yourself. You need some time in hospital and like others have said, a new meds regime and lots of care. you deserve it. I have had several psych ward stays and as sick as I was and thus as hard as it was, I don't regret any of them. There is help available and if you contact your psychiatrist yell long and loud to get help - it is their responsibility to provide it but some don't act, even when we are in desperate circumstances.

When you are on DS, you might consider another group which compliments this one - it's called Bipolar Depression. You would be welcome there.