Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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I really want to quit. But I know I'm addicted for realz now. I use to quit when I was younger all though I'd pick up sooner or later. Still at least I could put them down when I actually wanted too.
But now I can't put them down no matter how hard I try. I know they are killing me and not just because every one told me so. I can feel them killing me slowly now. I might butt the cigarette out just to relight it a few moments later.
I do love the electronic cigarette too. And I use it. But I still need to buy the real ones because even though the E cigarette tastes better and feels healthier it's not satisfying for me. I'd rather use it because it doesn't feel like hot death and toxic fumes. The main reason is simply the psychology of smoking the real one. I need to see the physical cigarette slowly burn down to feel like I fully smoked one. And I hate the fact that I can only take 3-5 drags on the E cigarette and then put it away for awhile. It's not the same as smoking a real cigarette.
Over all though I'd like to quit. My house smells terrible even to me. It's disgusting. And I feel hot death every time I light one up.
And no the patch doesn't do jack shit for me sorry. I use to smoke on the patch. It' isn't just the physical addiction any more. I have the mental addiction now too.
Ultimately I'd like to quit.
But now I can't put them down no matter how hard I try. I know they are killing me and not just because every one told me so. I can feel them killing me slowly now. I might butt the cigarette out just to relight it a few moments later.
I do love the electronic cigarette too. And I use it. But I still need to buy the real ones because even though the E cigarette tastes better and feels healthier it's not satisfying for me. I'd rather use it because it doesn't feel like hot death and toxic fumes. The main reason is simply the psychology of smoking the real one. I need to see the physical cigarette slowly burn down to feel like I fully smoked one. And I hate the fact that I can only take 3-5 drags on the E cigarette and then put it away for awhile. It's not the same as smoking a real cigarette.
Over all though I'd like to quit. My house smells terrible even to me. It's disgusting. And I feel hot death every time I light one up.
And no the patch doesn't do jack shit for me sorry. I use to smoke on the patch. It' isn't just the physical addiction any more. I have the mental addiction now too.
Ultimately I'd like to quit.
But there is always the relapse when you rejoin the real world, and who wants to pay for smokers to live in rehab.
Its a tough one, I have no answers outside of your own will and desire to tolerate the cravings without giving in to them. How to do that I have no clue. Have you tried the meds like Wellbutrin?
heh the last time I quit crack I did it all on my own. I didn't need a rehab, out patient or even NA. I just went home and that was it, I was done.
Well I haven't smoked since my last post last night. I gave the rest of my cigarettes to my neighbor and told her I was quitting and I meant it for real this time not just as a wishy wash lament. She said she wants to quit before her surgery so she can breath.
I have had cravings this is a little hard. WIth crack there were no cravings I was just sick in my stomach over it. Any how I have the same kind of hatred for cigarettes just not apparently on the same level. Still I refuse to smoke I just don't care any more. I hate them and quite honest I think I can just use the E cig. I like the E cig it has much better flavors. I don't even get tabacco flavored I use apple, coffee, and coka cola. Well there is one store in the mall that sells those flavors :). The only thing that's sad about the E cig is simply the amount of time you get to puff on it is too short.
Regardless I know I will be fine for now. I don't feel tempted to smoke again right now. I really am dissatisfied and angry with the way they taste and feel. I refuse to smoke that shit! I don't care what they say steve wonder could see that the fire proof chemical is more harmful then fires them selves.
I heard microwaving them can take that chemical out. Don't know if it's true but I also don't care. I'm done now. I love my E cigarette so I'm satisfied with IT now.