Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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I hadn't checked my mail in over a week, so I decided it was time to empty out the trash. I had a fucking heart attack when I saw FIVE notices from Natural Fuel saying that the gas is going to be shut off for the whole building. I was like, what the hell, why did *I* get these notices?! I was having a freaking panic attack and blew up my landlords phone, called my housing worker and left a message. Then I called my landlord again and he said he knew about the problem and it was taken care of and he had no clue why I got the notices. They didn't have my name on them, only "Occupant of Apt 2"
So many things went through my head in that 15 mins... I thought my supportive housing got shut off or something.
I'm still all worked up and I can't seem to clam down. Full blow panic attack on the way.
And to top it all off the girl I am falling in love with is a super bitch and has a bf already (but he lets her date girls) I know I need to walk away from it but my fucking heart is breaking. I'm so PISSED. No one cares. I have no one to talk about shit with irl.
I feel like people just make excuses when they don't want to see or talk to me. You make time for other people and your other friends. But when it comes to me... "Oh too much gas money" I offer to give gas money and another excuse comes up "I'm too sick and tired, its too far away, move closer." What my mother always says after shes gone to the moon and back for my sister " sorry I dont have a ride" I know some people who say that and they get places they really want to go without fail. I'm just sick of being blown off and ignored.
I'm at my wits ends. I'm so stressed I can hardly breathe. I just want someone to love me... Is that so much to ask?!
Maybe I'm just not good enough for anyone.
So many things went through my head in that 15 mins... I thought my supportive housing got shut off or something.
I'm still all worked up and I can't seem to clam down. Full blow panic attack on the way.
And to top it all off the girl I am falling in love with is a super bitch and has a bf already (but he lets her date girls) I know I need to walk away from it but my fucking heart is breaking. I'm so PISSED. No one cares. I have no one to talk about shit with irl.
I feel like people just make excuses when they don't want to see or talk to me. You make time for other people and your other friends. But when it comes to me... "Oh too much gas money" I offer to give gas money and another excuse comes up "I'm too sick and tired, its too far away, move closer." What my mother always says after shes gone to the moon and back for my sister " sorry I dont have a ride" I know some people who say that and they get places they really want to go without fail. I'm just sick of being blown off and ignored.
I'm at my wits ends. I'm so stressed I can hardly breathe. I just want someone to love me... Is that so much to ask?!
Maybe I'm just not good enough for anyone.
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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My day...today...misplaced my debit card...didn't realize it until I got to the register after shopping to a full cart. Used a different debit card and pulled apart everything looking for missing debit card before I left parking lot. Got home, dropped keys. So now I have a missing debit card, missing keys. A full cartload to unload and put away. I got everything put away.Dumped purse for a...
It has to be incredibly difficult to see the differences between the way your mom treats your sister and the way she treats you. Just don't ask your mom .... then there's no chance for you to feel rejected.
You probably don't want to have a girlfriend you have to share with another. I'm sorry your heart is breaking over it.
Hang in there Shlay. We all love you here!
xx
And I also have dealt with feelings of being rejected by friends. Just the kind of thing you were saying where they are absorbed into their own lives and say they are friends but somehow cant be there for me? Luckily through counseling and being around cooler people I dont get that one so much anymore.
Anyway, I agree with what has been said. If you have a PRN take it, turn out the lights and lie down just breathe. Some days are better just left behind.
Just wanted to let you know you arent the only one who feels these kinds of things
I want to tell you this: You are good enough!!!
Believe in your wonderfulness, Shlay!!!!!!
Keep posting, my friend. It helps in the sorting process.
a consistant cycle.lol
I have moments that I mis understand what someone had said to me &/or what I precieved at that moment what someone may have done/not done & some of snail mail that I recieve.
I can work myself in to anxiety frinzy. however sometimes it just instant.
Legally ulity co's are surpose to provide notices when uilitys are to be temporary shut off. Breath, slow breaths.
I take a med for anxiety. I take it when needed. If I take it w dite cola. it can take up to 15 - 30 minutes before it takes efffect. however w hot cup of coffee it kicks in within 15 minutes.
There r how many single people in US, in your state, near &/or in your community! I personally would not hang my hat on someone who is bi.
the relationship w fail. Doesn't matter how good the pkage looks/seems. it just not worth it.
You deserve far better than that.
Regarding your Mother. maybe your sister needs her more. where u are a stronger/idependant person. Stronger than u may relize.
R friends have busy lives & good intentions. they want to visit w us & may even make plans to do so but something always seems to come up.And yes some will start feeling guilty & due to guilt they will start distanceing them self from us.
Throught out our life people come & go, some will stay a bit but then move on. I wouldn't OCD about it. Stop beating yourself up over that.
iWill my support buddy is takeing me out shopping. looking forward to c-ing post n replys from u.
X's