It's a bad experience, but you know losing someone close to you will always be hard.

You can get past it, you can surive, and you can grieve correctly to make things feel better.

It hurts but you will live. You have to be strong for her. Speak out if you need help.

my nanny died from cancer friday weekend of thanks giveing we found out she had cancer(ovraen&tummy) next saterday she was in the hosptail..i felt so bad didnt see her till later in the week cuz i was scared to see my nanny sick knowing it was cancer or just scared like a little kid for no reason :s saw her later that week as i said goodbye to hear that day,in the back of my head thought this could be the last time i see her blew that off fast..i dont no why you aways want to think posatively..i called her the saterday weekend after thanks giveing(eveing) to say im sorry i havent came by & said hi since thanks give (u know with work n all) as nanny understanding, I said well i didnt want u to think i forgot about you or anything..she told me I know your'll never forget me..then i said if it was ok i would come over monday cuz i didnt have to work she said ok..love u nanny, love you too bye..that nite she went to the hosptal..as i hung up the phone frum that coversion i thought(she used pass tents like she was gone)then i once agin did think much of it..i saw her monday..our last goodbye after leaveing the hosptal asking my mum if my nanny really did say all those things to me in the hosptal( why did i ask maybe i thought she did maybe it was a dream..i dont no) then i realized what she told me saterday on the phone ..i told my mum cuz she told me my nanny said i called her saterday my mum though it was the morphie..all day sunday she was in the E.R so we couldnt go see her. my yongest cuzin went that nite hopeing she had a room to everyone suprise she did..my mum thought of calling me then cuz she was more alret but disaided cuz i was at red lobster not to..and it was 11pm though the little sleep i could get would be nice.( i guess) it didnt borther me that much i didnt see her sunday she would has sum dope monments and thats not like nanny so would be hard to see.monday she was sleepy but that was ok she still was nanny just very very sleepy..oh nanny..oh dear i rambbled

I lost someone very close. I was medicated and went into a serious mixed/hypomanic state. If what you are experiencing is more than the kinds of moods you have seen other people in (ie sadness, anger, releief, anything really) then seek help.

Otherwise it's grieving.

My condolences on your loss. My Dad died October 14th. My pdoc had to up my meds when we knew Dad was dying (he was in hospice). I was getting too moody and had too many intrusive thoughts. Having said that everyone does grieve differently. Right now I am very depressed about a lot of things but it's getting slightly better as time goes on. Some of the situations will never go away that are making me depressed and I have to accept that. I say if your moods continue to be off go see your pdoc about it but don't wait too long. The others are right having bipolar just makes it worse especially when we are stressed. My therapist even agrees with that. Death of a loved one takes time I was severely depressed for 7 months when my Mom died but please don't wait that long before seeing your pdoc about your situation ok? ((((HUGS)))) Sorry I rambled.

I think your grief is a compliment to your nanny, she obviously was a very important and much loved part of your life. I am very sorry for your loss and think you need to allow yourself to feel sad and it is ok to feel depressed. Be kind to yourself and allow the tears to flow.

hang in there kid. i totally understand what you are going thru. the bad part was i didn't let it out and went in the pit of hell. let it flow, tears, anger, depression - all of these are the stages of grief. i want to suggest the bereavement board here on DS, it is quite a supportive place, like us, and people there are going thru the same thing you are. keep on, keeping on - nanny was a special person and she is with you everyday, show her some praise by remembering the good times and moving thru the process.