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I haven't lost anyone close to me before. But I have have seen people grieve before and need time off work. Its always a loss but whne your elders die its not a tragedy but a celebration of ones life. I understand that she may have been a great influence in your life and would have looked up to her, but she is in a better place now that she has moved on. Take all the time you need to grieve, in a couple of weeks if your still grieving maybe it would be time to see a p-doc about getting antidepressants or therapy. My condolence.

its been a month

Oh, ok...did you go to the funeral? And what is it that you miss most about your nan?

Griveing is different for all of us,I have found that if I accept that they are in a better place now,then it would be selfish of me to want them here just for me. You see that way I am putting my love for them first,I can let go and enjoy the memories of the time we had together.

Take time to grieve. Because it takes time to grieve. The time is different for everyone but don't expect it to go away quickly, especially when losing someone close to you. If it keeps you from functioning you might need a med adjustment or grief counseling. Your Therapist can help with that.

I just lost my sister tragically and I loved her more than life, she was my best friend. I feel for you hon and I know where you are coming from. I have been up and down. Most of the time so manic I can't stop. Much of this may also be a normal part of the grieving process. People keep telling me just to let it out when it needs to come out. That helps, things will get better in time http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zlt57Q7ZVU Just cut and paste if it doesn't automatically send you, I am dedicating this to your nanny and you.

Oh meme: First of all would like to hug you and express my sympathy for your loss. Secondly, I can personally tell you from losing my Mami Pami (my Aunt that raised me while my Mom was out bringing home the bacon) that this is a pain that may always be with you. It's been almost 5 years of her passing and to this day when I think of her it brings me to tears. Everyone grieves differently, I am sentimental Sammy and am very emotional when it comes to my family. Especially Mami Pami, she did so many wonderful things for me in her lifetime. But she is in a better place, a place where her cancer gives her no pain and that for me is a type of solace. I still miss her but know that it is not healthy to keep crying about it. My best to you, and hope that your little heart can heal over this like mine has. Maybe grief counseling might work for you also. Peace and love - Maria J.

Grief can certainly aggravate bipolar..being an enormous stressor etc. Talk to doc, for sure xx

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I know she in a better place i dont want her come back she was in pain seeing her body in that hosptail bed in it all i could think shes at peace and turely felt it..ya i went to the funarl i was there for the planing with the prest(only granchild that was there talking with the pasrter*rest are boys not 2 big on feeling) What i miss most everything..lunch, theather,smiles,hugs,chats,everything we were very close.. i know she safe and out of pain it was so fast and i guess why it hurts more. friday of canandas thanks giveing we found out she had cancer( i did see her to next tue*guessin*) that saterday nite she was in the hospilal sunday after noon they said all we can do is paltive care( i work in a old age home..i know that means goodbye)tue she left us..i got to talk to her saterday eveing. monday i went to the hosptal she said i love u she tryed to smile when i said i came to smile for u..i told her i would come back she moand as no.. i asked her if she was tried she said ya i told her that go rest now ..have a good sleep nanny..she watch me walk out the door the last look she opened her eyes all the way as if to say goodbye(i didnt cry,she wouldnt want me to)all the grandchilden got to say good bye my mum unle and anut did same with my grandpa and his brother..after monday nite when we all seen her she stoped talking..she was my nanny till the end..Fuck (sorry nanny) now im crying ...i miss her so ..rest in peace nanny

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It can be unbearable sometimes. Sorry.

my,this all hurts( saying good bye)

first of all I am so sorry for your loss, and secondly I really know where you are coming from as I have just lost a family member to dropping dead in the middle of a carpark from a heart attack...and it can affect people in different ways, I have noticed that I am a little on the aggitated side..apparently this is the angry side which is quite normal...but it only aggrivates it more with being BP...

You can of course feel free to go onto the bereavement support group for a while to help with anything or any advice or support if you wish...
best of luck, and hugs to you..
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