Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I've had problems with my mental health for a very long time, they only started showing up when i was 7, i started doing dark artwork, self harming at 8, eating disorders and suicidal by 9, suicide attempts by 11. Anyway, i'm 16 now, and the state of of my metal health has enabled me from going to school. I haven't been since i was 11. Looking after myself was a full time job so i have had no education at all since. I got diagnosed with bipolar and put on anti-psychotics.
I'm now being urged by everyone to go to college in September as my mums money will stop otherwise (yes, it seems money is more important?). I'm willing to give it a go but what happens if i can't manage it? I'll be 11 again. Stopped education so everyone hates me. I don't want my family and such to hate me! And then without qualifications what job can i get? My life would be over before i'd even started it.
I feel so hopeless about the future and feel if i couldn't get on at college i'd have to kill myself (even though i really don't want to die) so no one has to struggle paying for me. Because there's no way i'd accept tax payers money for me, i would feel a right bum. I'd have no quality of life either.
Please, any advice at all about anything (to do with my situation) would be useful?
I'm now being urged by everyone to go to college in September as my mums money will stop otherwise (yes, it seems money is more important?). I'm willing to give it a go but what happens if i can't manage it? I'll be 11 again. Stopped education so everyone hates me. I don't want my family and such to hate me! And then without qualifications what job can i get? My life would be over before i'd even started it.
I feel so hopeless about the future and feel if i couldn't get on at college i'd have to kill myself (even though i really don't want to die) so no one has to struggle paying for me. Because there's no way i'd accept tax payers money for me, i would feel a right bum. I'd have no quality of life either.
Please, any advice at all about anything (to do with my situation) would be useful?
Can you start slow - just a couple of classes? Just to see how it goes? Before you commit to the whole thing? That would be a lot to take on all at once. That way mom would be happy.. you could try it out..
Or there are other training programs other than college that you could get through quicker.
((hugs))
Are there any other training programs that would take less time? Here we have transcription, coding, massage therapy, hair school, photography..... to name just a few. It might be the same commitment for now but at least you could get through it quicker. But maybe the course material wouldn't be as involved?
Any interests anything you like to do......?
http://www.derby-college.ac.uk/course-search/view-course?courseId=99841
Thats the course i'd have to do.