The thing is, I don't allow others to determine my identity. If they don't like me the way I am, they can disappear for all I care. I won't lose any sleep over it!!

In the late 60's and early 70's it meant you were the coolest person around. So I tend to go with that definition, and it makes me feel - cool!

Sorry you don't feel good about it, though and are hurting.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1qQ1SKNlgY

Just to cheer you a bit! The bad lip syncing alone is worth it!

ya, I hate it!!!

its not others, necessarily ....this is how i feel, like a huge freak

My dear, you are taking others opinions much too personally. My question is, why is that?

I like freaks, mostly.

& am proudly one :)

Yeah Kirstieblue ..it's not really pejorative around here to this day x

i'm betting people are treating you like a freak because you are awake

HUH?

because your eyes are open

or, opening

oh sorry, i didn't read you reply that it was yourself thinking this.. but your self could be thinking this because you are awakening to truth and the outside environment isn't supportive of that

Well, if you are one, at least you're a beautiful one!!!!
I hope that helps counteract the horrible pain of feeling like a freak at least a little bit!!!

And also, if you are one, you sure have a wonderful 'non-freak' side to you, too!!!
(I think that's the part that shows the most, at least as far as I can tell.)

((((((((((Hugs))))))))))

it's f*cking lonely feeling like i can't relate to anything and anybody in my real life, but i still celebrate my will to be weird.

if it's others calling me it, i look at the source and can laugh it off

if it's me calling me `freak' i say `yeah. well. no shit'