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Just when i needed DS the most it was temporarily unavailable. I'm not going into why my day was awful...I'm past the point of discussing it. Today..no better...the holiday hasn't been all bad...its amazing how being around family could drag you down to despair. I'm around them frequently so its really just me and my mood crashing. I don't think i can do another year like last. Really having bad destructive thoughts. Yay...bringing the Christmas cheer ...
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And I hope everyone is having a nice weekend.We're going to the Squatch Fest! (Bigfoot)
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So I have been having a lot of health issues and my cardiologist felt that he didn't get clear enough images of my heart in the office, so he wanted to do a Trans-esophegeal heart Echocardiocgram in the hospital. I was pretty nervous about it, because I've never had any procedures related to my heart or any other major organs. I've had knee surgery and thyroid surgery, but to me anything to do...
((((BIG HUG)))) Sorry your struggling, but we are HERE! I could not believe last night it was down - in all my time that was the LONGEST outage.....
Family can suck, Christmas brings a forum where we are stuck with the insults, or abuse - at 25, I had to realize I was THE family that took advantage of going off on a Holiday - LOL, nothing worse than calling a spade, a spade - when the spade is YOU!
Just like last Christmas, and 2004, 1987, 1999 - this will be history, and not effect our life or journey very much - it just feels VERY Overwhelming today...
Of course, life is hard and rough - it would be nice to GET A BREAK and have a good Christmas. Life is not fair, or pain free - it is hard, sucks, and family can rock our world......
I'm here to tell you - I'm nuts about you!!!! Joyful to see you here, especially after no DS last night!!!! Hold on - this season shall pass, and maybe next week we can laugh about it!
Tragedy makes the best comedy!!! LOL one of my favorite tools I use (to hold on) "one day this will be funny - just not today"
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Take some deep breaths.. You can get through this...
Big hug for you sweetie...xo
Everything went pretty well!!!
And then, last night, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 things happened right in a row and for the first time in a long time, my anxiety was sky high and I was ready to grab with shaking hands my bottle of benzos and pop one!!!
(Pdoc approves PRN-ing them for special occasions.)
But it was only about an hour till bedtime, so I held off.
Hahahahahaha!!!!
That caught me by surprise!!!!!
I really thought it was going to be one of the easiest Christmas' ever!!!!
That thought alone should have tipped me off that it would all be shot to hell!!! LOLOLOL!!!!!
i'm sorry you're suffering.