I wouldn't know what to do if I had self-esteem. I suppose I do have a little which I've fought myself to get for a month and change. My problem is that I would question the ego over self-esteem. Ego isn't good for being healthy. Being humble is divine. Yes, I did get a boost from that, and some other personally excited feelings, but that's all mind chatter. Stuff like that needs to be suppressed or ignored and cleared out. But yeah, I did (maybe do) want to put a hurtin on it, to use a very crass phrase. I'm still a lonely man with bipolar-infused desires after all

If you are not divorced, don't give your spouse grounds to drain your pocketbook; don't assume noone will ever know. If you are more sexualized when manic, consider the possibility you might be and get others input on whether you are showing symptoms. Even if you don't regret going for it for other reasons, you may be pissed at yourself and wonder at your true motives if you realize your mania was in the driver's seat. Also, don't create a reason for a future potential mate to think you can't be trusted. Delayed gratification can be extra sweet. If you are interested in this particular person, show your interest but say acting on it will have to wait. If she's interested, she won't disappear. And if one girl hits you straight up like that, there will be others. You do not sound like you have ANY commitment to your spouse. Tell her and seek a mutual divorce. It isn't fair to her to pretend you are committed. If you ever loved her, show her that much respect.

I have nothing of value. No money, no savings, I don't even own my own car. They're both in her name and I don't think my name is on there. I didn't ask for anything other than my tools, the rest of my clothes, and my minor Simpsons collection (all of which were gifts from various people save a very few pieces I happened upon) with not really anything rare, and the remainder of my personal things. I'm on disability which cannot be taken legally. I have no retirement.
She does. I'm not a person to attach to that, she worked for it. I was the at-home most of the time and not a very good one at that, honestly.
I don't want a future "mate" at this point, but I do get it. I understand your point there. People change and I am one prone to doing so at this point in my life.
I've got an odd take on love, or so I'm told. Could also be an issue I need to work out. I never stop loving anyone. Not the high school girlfriend that cheated on me. Not anyone. My other feelings change, like wanting to vomit instead of think about my wife because puking seems more pleasant.
I've iterated that I'm not acting on this offer. It's nice to be invited to the party even if you don't go.
I have told wife and we are doing just that. Settling property ourselves and signing in front of a judge.
Delayed gratification can be very sweet. I won't hop into the first candy store I see. That would be sad to do. I am going to want to have a look around.
By the way, for someone so interested in delaying gratification, you've chosen the most opposite of names, "insatiate"

@BothsidesBroken: I'm glad your managing your symptoms and controlling your basic urges. I know its hard, but the better you get at not giving in to one symptom, the stronger you get at not giving in to all and gaining a more Stable Life.....and Stability is worth fighting the hard fights.

Take care,
K

Doesn't your wife deserve better then that I wouldn't even do anything like that or even think about it it would only be trouble.

I've established I'm not going to. Repeatedly.
I deserve better than that maybe. I really don't think anyone elses deserves have a lot to do with my behaviours in reference to my wife. I deserved better too.
I'm going to wait at least 2 weeks before I go out on any date, if I can help it. I'll have had more time to let it sink in.