Hi, ive posted here like mad lol..i really appreciate everyones support.

im currently feeling really anxious..i went to my first AA meeting and im just like what if i cant do it, what if i cant keep committed..what if i fail.....? i dont want, espescially my sponser person to be disappointed in me...nothing bad has ever happened to me because of alcohol so i dont have a ..i- dont -wanna-be-there-again story...what if im too weak to be successful...im scared. idk wat to do...i actually wanna cry and sit in the corner of my room and cry.

btw no one..not even friends no that im on the path to have an alcohol problem..no one at all so ofcourse there isnt support...christina is my only support if i go ahead with this. shes gonna pick me up again to go to this non alcoholic dance party...i honestly feel like thats an oxy moron..part and non alcoholic.

i may have to go to this part with my brother tonight to keep my bro safe and in check cuz i have a bad twin feeling that i cant shake so thats why i might go...there will be alcohol there and i realize im not in control like i thought cuz normal drinkers dont have anxiety of how they will avoid drinking.

anyways..id love to talk to someone.