Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I am fucking angry. There are no other words to describe it. I am pissed beyond measure. Angry. That is what I am feeling. There is so much shit going haywire in my life right now, I don't even know if I should post this here. I can post this under like 5 different categories. My job is stressful. I am mentally ill and I am helping other people that are mentally ill handle their lives and disorders. I am supposed to start a job training program to leave this stressful career path I am in. My job schedule and the job training crashes, I will not be able to do both at the same time. I can’t afford to quit my job, and the thought of staying kills me. Even if I stay in the mental health field, this particular job is the fucking worst, and I NEED TO LEAVE.
4 months ago, I was diagnosed with diabetes and high blood pressure. My brother and his wife are in jail as a result of some poor choices they made that resulted in the death of my brother’s 4-year-old son, my nephew. Because they are in jail, me, my mother, and my sister have to be foster parents to his 4 kids. His kids are special needs and are suffering from PTSD, depression, attachment disorder ect. I hate living with, my mother and my younger sister and these kids. I hate it. Never a moment’s peace. It was stressful living here before they turned up, and now its worse. I hate it here, and I can’t afford to move out. I am also in college trying to get a degree. I weigh 370 pounds and I have an eating disorder including sugar addiction, binge eating, and emotional eating.
I have a history of suicidal thoughts. I don’t know what I’m doing. I am trying my fucking best and it doesn’t seem to be good enough. I am tired, and sad, and angry. And every step forward seems like 3 steps back. I know people have it worse than me, I know I should be grateful, but I am hurting inside and I don’t know what to do.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
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I'm going through something similar. I live with my 22 yr old son and his grandma. She has bad health and my son has Aspergers'. I have to do almost everything. I go into depression a lot and cry. My son and I can't afford a place of our own, either. I feel afraid most of the time.
I'm sorry your life is so difficult now. I wish we lived near each other and hang out and comfort each other.
Big hugs.
Can you doctor put you on a sick leave for a while.... Perhaps you would be able to take some time off of work and if you're well enough maybe do the training sessions
Your diabetes wouldn't be helped being under all of this stress either..... I'm sure either your pdoc or your internist would give you the time off of work under these circumstances if you could manage it....
Big hug.....xo
Sure seems from reading your post that being overwhelmed is a huge factor that effects all areas of your life and your health. If you have a social service agency working with the kids, perhaps child protective services, they could help with respite and foster care parents? or other services that would help your family. Based on your family income and the number of people who are living in your house you might qualify for programs to help reduce $$ and your stress...especially now with winter. Prayer that all will come into your life for yours and your families Highest Good.