Nobody ever talks to me or calls me. I feel like everyone hates me. My boyfriend says he doesn't know how I live with myself.

I'm sorry you're going through this. Big hugs.

Thank you Jennifer big bear hugs to you

Were you at my house last night? This sounds just like the Tit-for-Tat skirmish I had with my own dearly beloved. I just love the way domestic Tit-for-Tat starts with something real and quickly evolves into kicking one another's hearts, dreams and character up and down the playing field. All that is missing are the camera crews, roaring spectators and talking heads. Is it progress that after 36 years of practice I have gotten to where I can remember the original trigger after the game is over? It is usually something as important as where to put a kitchen utensil.

Can I go be a river boat captain now?

Vent, vent, gnarl, gnash. . .

sorry your're going through a rough time....maybe a therapist could help you work out what "you need" to help you feel better about yourself. So hard sometimes to live with someone...for me, the more I fee 'safe' with someone the bitchier I get...not great for relationship/or getting my needs met. Now, if I feel like I'm being triggered, I say "sorry, can't talk now, give me a half hour/or sorry I need to go for a walk before I say something I don't want to and hurt your feelings"....hoping you will have a better day today!

I once realized that the more I had faith and trust in my husband the more I took advantage of the relationship. He became my place to vent, especially anger. It was like I knew he loved me and wasn't going anywhere so subconsciously I took things out on him in anger because I could. Then there is always that argument where something trivial gets brought up or happens and it ends up being about everything but the original trigger. I was able to get a lot of help through therapy and now I am better able to control my anger or at least tell him I am in an irritable and angry mood so we can work together to avoid triggers. I am sorry you are going through this and hope you can get some help with it. The constant fighting can cause such emotional stress and you need a break. Things do get better but maybe therapy would help. I like ML's post as well. Saying you can't discuss something for a few or taking a walk to calm down is helpful. I hope you are having a better day!!!

Big hug braver.... I can't remember if you wrote that you've seen your pdoc recently??... I would have your doctor assess your meds
You can also take an anger management therapy that might help with your regular therapy... I don't know if this relationship is good for either of you however I would look at the medical side first.... xo