Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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noone
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i catch myself acting or saying things that mimick my mothers behaviors to a T. i hate this feeling; i don’t want to be her. she is my biggest fear; my worst enemy. i can’t talk to anyone about these feelings because they all tell me the same thing, “well you are your mothers daughter” or “of course you’ll act like her, she raised you”. but they don’t understand. sure, i’m her flesh and blood, but she also gave me her mentality. i have the same mental illness as her and it makes it 10X worse for me to try and cope with things when i feel that i am becoming her. i don’t want people to be miserable around me because of my behavior. i grew up in a constant state of confusion and frustration because of my mothers behaviors.


i just don’t have anyone to talk to anymore; no one will truly listen. when i try to explain this to a family member or friend, i can almost predict what they’ll tell me. people no longer communicate with me to listen; only to wait for their turn to respond 

arfie
arfie
Gentle commiseration, Noone. I believe I know the feeling and that the worst of ^it^ in my own strictly personals is that the harder I fight ^it^, the more true ^it^ becomes. In my own rendition, it is my father I keep glimpsing in the mirror, but the spirit of the resistance remains.

I won't bore you with too much predictable detail in *my turn* to respond.

Listening. . .
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