I'm not sure why. Maybe because I'm afraid of change and/or the unknown.
I'm tired of feeling so terrible. I do get suicidal but I don't want to leave my son behind.
I'm on meds and go to therapy. I've been battling this disorder for around 20 yrs. It has always been there but in smaller pieces. It has taken so much from me.
I don't know how I made it this far.
I am too sad today. I can't stop crying it is hard to speak and eat I just feel very deeply sad and can't be distracted from it it is just consuming me. I could beat myself up for feeling sorry for myself and being self indulgent but....... I am just too sad to bother. Something is lost and it is like a hole inside me right now.
It's that time of year again when a new semester starts. I teach full time from my hospital chaplaincy years, death and dying classes to nursing students at a community college. It's been rewarding these 7 years I've done it since kidney disease took me off the hospital floor into the classroom, and I'm grateful.However, my despite effective therapy, meds, and this wonderful support group,...