one yr ago today i lost a good friend to suicide. and i got his last ph call. thanking me for being his friend. for loving him no matter what he said or did. but he was tired. and it was his time to go. he said love you, take care and see you some time. i went numb, he had tried before but had done so good for a few yrs. i called his son, who was not talking to his dad. i called 911 did not help but transferred me over to local crisis center. they wanted proof why i thought he was in harms way. i said trust me. they asked all these questions. i hung up called 911 again. i was frantic. it was awful. worse day of my life. i will never forget that ph call. when i could get no one to help me or believe me, i knew it was real this time. i could feel it. i was ice cold. and numb. i knew. sadly by time any one would help me he was gone. RIP my dear friend. do you know the next a.m. crisis center called me to ask if i wanted or needed to talk to any one???? and they apologized ???!!!! well back on them. they were to late. might have not made difference. but they are to take calls serious. that lady did not. they had 3 calls , me and two from family, and still did not go to his apt. or call police to assist them. just need to write this. and earlier that day, i had ph call that a very good, dear lady friend also passed. so to you Ruth, blessings up there in Heaven. If you see Larry, up there, tell him i know he is now at peace, but we miss him here. thanks for listening to me. he was like a younger brother to me. I was his last ph call, thanking me. that was a blessing i guess to help me deal with the coming days. he thought of me. hugs to all, or any one else who has dealt with this.