Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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mrstood
mrstood
I'm really struggling at the moment with my emotions. I feel like I'm a the end of my tether with all that has happened over the last few months. I have mentioned before that having an adequate support network is imperative to help me with my recovery journey. The fact is I have failed in developing one.

I am on my own most days without purpose or direction. Even though I have plans in the near future they don't seem to be close enough. I still have a few weeks to go before I start study and volunteering for Lifeline, When this eventuates it will at least get me to occupy my time and take my mind off what is going on at the moment. I basically feel like I am emotionally and mentally crippled. I want to be around people, but because I feel this way at the moment I don't think I would be good to be around nor do I think it would alleviate the emptiness I feel. Quite frankly I don't know what would help me, I'm really at a loss.

I don't want to put any pressure on Sharron to see me, especially when I am like this, but I really feel that she is my only option, but I know she is at the end of her tether as well. Our relationship has been so rocky I don't want to risk losing her completely. I found out what that was like for a few weeks and it almost literally killed me. Its not fair on her to take on the sole responsibility of trying to make me feel better in some way, I have to find other avenues of support so that I will be ok to be around, but I don't feel like this is happening. Like I said, I feel like I am at a loss, and at risk of making things even worse for myself.

Where can I get help? Who can I turn too? What the hell do I do?
GildedLily
GildedLily
Same thing here. Christmas is over. Winter is setting in. My days feel endless. Like you, I'm searching for a plan.

In the past, it has always helped me to take the focus off myself for awhile. Volunteered at the library and sitting with old folks. Swimming has always been a good outlet, too. Start a new project - like painting something or building something. Cook something new.

I'm just turning in circles at the moment, trying to find one thing to be interested in. I think I'll just jump off into something and then think about it.

As for your Sharon - how about YOU make a picnic and call her up to meet you. Go to a second hand store and buy her a book. Talk to people while you are out and dig through all the treasures at the bookstore. Just a couple ideas. Think of some small token you can do for her and that gives you less time for your thoughts to run in circles - like mine are doing.

I NEED to take my own advice.
bbipolar
bbipolar
I think you are on to something. Don't put it on Sharon. She's probably been through the mill already. I know from my own person experience that when I got like you are feeling now, I would dump it on my boyfriends and they got sick of it. They went from being partners to friends to I can't deal with this woman anymore. She doesn't need your drama. Go out to take a class in Tai Chi, that's physical, emotional and spiritual. Do one thing positive a day. Do it for yourself.
spacekat
spacekat
Both Lily and bbipolar have great ideas - I think just getting outside for a walk is a good start. I also feel directionless so I volunteer and that makes all the difference. I only volunteer once a week and that's enough. I would talk with Sharon about putting "pressure" on her because of your needs right now and go from there. Are there any support groups in your area? That could be a good option, as well. I too often find myself asking "Now what?" and being at a loss for purpose. So I delve into my family life and try to make my purpose supporting them as they support me. First and foremost, take care of YOU - start small and build upon what you've started. I hope you find that missing something to give you a sense of worth and wellbeing.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you sweetie....Just post the holiday time is hard on a lot of people... Have you seen your doctor lately?... Maybe a med tweak?

"Mentally Crippled" sound like you may need some medical intervention....xo
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
I think , like everyone else has mentioned, the post-holiday stuff is really tough. Also being on certain medications can make us sometimes feel too flat emotionally....but trying something new each day to plow through those feelings is important. I love that you were learning harmonica! That's very cool! Do you have an arts and craft store nearby? Sometimes I just go through every aisle and look for something cool to do. I can usually find something. The volunteering is a great idea. I think it's hard to start new stuff sometimes, but once you get into the swing of it it can end up being a very positive thing. You just have to keep plowing through the tough stuff to get to the good stuff, at least that's what I've found...
sigmund2
sigmund2
also, try humor, if you can. i know it is hard but try. some of the funnisest things on tv happen when you are in a bad way. i just read a facebook post about a friend at walmart. her boot ripped while shopping with her four year old twins. it wasn't enough that they want everything in the toy aisle and one of them had a metldown when he couldn't have captain underpants or something (i think he's a real character); no, then her boot had to go and rip. she posted on facebook and made me laugh so hard, i didn't realize the that there could have been a flip side. she said, ..."so my while my son was screaming and crying my boot rips. I am holding on to him with one hand, the cart with the other, and calling to my daughter to stay near and not eat the hersheys chocolate she just eyed. she didn't listen. so we check out, boot flapping, people giaring at me. I am about to say, um, I don't care. We leave the store and the wind starts blowing, it is even more obvious. everyone is in the car, we are ready to go and my son says, "mommy I have to go pottly." so back I go, boot flapping. the security guy at the front said, go ahead, I remember you.

So, my point is, that a ripped boot maybe was an impulse buy (at least I can relate). just try to see something funny in it. maybe you and Sharron can talk about it together. just take a step back and breath
sigmund2
sigmund2
and maybe your ripped boot is something else but don't look it as ,oh , such a bad purchase, think, what a funny thing it was.
MayB
MayB
Post holiday crap setting in...check!

You are coming here for support (check)!

It gets better but not as soon as you would like (check)!

(((hugs)))) Find the joy and don't leave it!
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