i'm new and i haven't spoken to my pdoc about this yet- got an app this week that i must force myself to keep. i'm not so sure how common paranoia is with bp but i have it in heaps. my latest is that my bf's bestie who is 'like a sister' is tryna steal him from me. insane, right? well the other day i found out she went through my messages and found some texts she thought to be inappropriate and spun some 'she might be cheating' tale to him. i have not cheated on him. can't say i haven't had the urges, hyper-sexuality is also one of the joys of my condition, but i have kept my fantasies in my head. then she started monitoring me- yes, i returned the favour and went through her messages, i know it's wrong but c'mon! she's been telling him about my cutting and how i'm sitting in my room shredding paper and scribbling on my door- i was really going through my low period. she's my housemate so she's unavoidable. she made me sound really crazy. now my paranoid mind seized that and decided she's trying to make me out to be some loon so she can have him and it makes me sooo angry. i can't even say how much. please help me feel better and share some paranoid moments or advice.