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So. yet again i cease to amaze myself by having a completely out of
control couple of days that are. just worrying.
i literally lost control. im writing this feeling immensely ashamed, upset and disgusted with myself.
it started thursday night and look i dont even want to
go into what happened. but ive only just managed to get home
sober enough to look sort of normal.
:( im sad that im doing this i wish i could just not make stupid
decisions. i know i am better than partying so hard its killing me, and
taking drugs to an early grave. i know its so bad, but i just get so impulsive sometimes. its actually hurting my health :(
anyway. for anyone who's read this. i know you cant really say a lot i dont already know :/ but it's nice to know people are here with me x
hope everyones okay x
control couple of days that are. just worrying.
i literally lost control. im writing this feeling immensely ashamed, upset and disgusted with myself.
it started thursday night and look i dont even want to
go into what happened. but ive only just managed to get home
sober enough to look sort of normal.
:( im sad that im doing this i wish i could just not make stupid
decisions. i know i am better than partying so hard its killing me, and
taking drugs to an early grave. i know its so bad, but i just get so impulsive sometimes. its actually hurting my health :(
anyway. for anyone who's read this. i know you cant really say a lot i dont already know :/ but it's nice to know people are here with me x
hope everyones okay x
I have been there, and being young make it easier ((((BIG HUG)))
Whether Bipolar
Manic
Alcoholic
Drug addict
If you keep doing it, what your doing, you will keep getting what your getting... It's not really all that fun - calling it out of control, well does that mean you don't have a choice??? don't know for you, when it came to parting .... different ball game : )
So glad to see you though! You are loved and missed!!!!!
So sweetie, whatever happens - make a note, that you don't like today, and maybe enough "notes to self" you Think about trying something different - much love and support your WAY!!!!
I really don't think your addicted, I think - like me, you will abuse things to feel "fun" and "alive"... Being 50, three generations before me - found the Drug experiment to be a failure - so, you thinking its the '60's, need to think where those hard core party-ers are! LMAO
However I must ask. have u heard of binge drinking ?
Yrs ago when I had myself admit. into hospital. I enjoyed the mini vacation & food service, maid service...
x
you are still loved. a valuable person. don't forget it.
you are young and I was once on the same party road.
it can get way better.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((gentle hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i can just admit myself for a mini vaction :(
we've got to be really ill to get any help and
im not really ill at all because i havent tried to kill anyone
i havent tried to kill myelf ( recently) etc LOL
i hate life .
Rm service was nice.
I just did a wal mart run. I wish I had a swimming pool between the house & my car.
X's
doing that kind of thing can be, you know.
i'm not preaching, just concerned. love you all the same.
just want you to feeel better and get the right meds, so you can get on with your life.
once you do that, you can still find ways to have fun, all the fun doesn't have to be over, and you will be in more control.
is there anyway you could outsmart the system, and maybe even fib a tiny, just to get what you actually do need ?
ah ! xo
and it seems like the most sensible suggestion :)
however, on the other hand, if i am seen to be
"maniupulating" the system i will be labeled
with BPD and there is even less treatment for that. HAAAAA