So. yet again i cease to amaze myself by having a completely out of
control couple of days that are. just worrying.

i literally lost control. im writing this feeling immensely ashamed, upset and disgusted with myself.

it started thursday night and look i dont even want to
go into what happened. but ive only just managed to get home
sober enough to look sort of normal.

:( im sad that im doing this i wish i could just not make stupid
decisions. i know i am better than partying so hard its killing me, and
taking drugs to an early grave. i know its so bad, but i just get so impulsive sometimes. its actually hurting my health :(

anyway. for anyone who's read this. i know you cant really say a lot i dont already know :/ but it's nice to know people are here with me x

hope everyones okay x