Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Ok, My Pysc. dr. tells me I am not Bipolar, she just thinks I am severely depressed. I was very suicidal, intended to kill myself 2 and cut once. Since then I have been put on cymbalta and Wellbutrin. And clonazapam. Ok, clonazapam is for anxiety. I only take it at bedtime to help me sleep along with serequel now. She wanted to see if I could get off one of the anti-depressants so she took me off the cymbalta. I go back, I tell her Im on a roller coaster, she says, Lets try a little Limictal. So on it I go. It is not helping one little bit. In fact Im worse than ever. I think I am Bi-polar. Please, you tell me:
One min. I am on cloud nine. The least tiny little thing can throw me into a severely depressive state. Sometimes so bad that I go into almost a shock like condition.where I am extremely sleepy and get very cold, I have to go to bed, dont sleep but cant open my eyes and cant get warm no matter what.
The least little thing can put me into a very irritated state where I want to jump down anyones throat!
All day long, I am HIGH, then Depresses, Then irritated, then High again. And when Im High Im High as in everything is funny, Im on top of the world, talking 90 miles a min. and having the time of my life. Then someone will say something and SLAM, Im manic depressive again! I am on a constant roller coaster all day long.
I have extremely low self-esteem. I dont want to live. I hate myself! Because I hate the way it affects my family, my kids and my husband! He is the most wonderful man in the world and he nor my kids deserve what I am putting them through.
Do I tell the dr. I am Bi-polar and to treat me so, or am I just losing my mind?
Please tell me your opinions. Do you think I am bipolar? My dr. doesnt think so.
One min. I am on cloud nine. The least tiny little thing can throw me into a severely depressive state. Sometimes so bad that I go into almost a shock like condition.where I am extremely sleepy and get very cold, I have to go to bed, dont sleep but cant open my eyes and cant get warm no matter what.
The least little thing can put me into a very irritated state where I want to jump down anyones throat!
All day long, I am HIGH, then Depresses, Then irritated, then High again. And when Im High Im High as in everything is funny, Im on top of the world, talking 90 miles a min. and having the time of my life. Then someone will say something and SLAM, Im manic depressive again! I am on a constant roller coaster all day long.
I have extremely low self-esteem. I dont want to live. I hate myself! Because I hate the way it affects my family, my kids and my husband! He is the most wonderful man in the world and he nor my kids deserve what I am putting them through.
Do I tell the dr. I am Bi-polar and to treat me so, or am I just losing my mind?
Please tell me your opinions. Do you think I am bipolar? My dr. doesnt think so.
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One day runs into the next I can't seem to keep them straightBut i do know it's Tuesday and I start to clean my landord's place again so it'll keep me going although I take breaks more often nowHe doesn't mind and I gwt it doneI hope that you have a good day and can get done what you need toBig hugz sent..Xo
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Good day to everyone...Well sort of day...I'm still waiting to sleepI think I will soonI got a few things done yesterday...Pushing through and I hope to do the same todayI've been low so everything at this point is one big effortHopefully that will change before longSending hugs...Have a good day!...xo
Since no one here can dx you, it's a really good idea to get a 2nd opinion.
Regardless of what dx you get, you need to feel better.
See another doc.
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Try to see if she gets it a while before you mention it, because doctors get their pride hurt lol. And they are not happy when you "self diagnose" which most the time really means just taking responsability for your own health and asking questions but they take it the wrong way.
You can download a free "mood chart," and track your moods for the doctor, current and/or a new one.
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I think if you have done your research on varius illnesses and Bipolar seems to be the only one that fits how you feel, then go with that intuition and find a doctor who will give you some answers.
It's not normal for people with straight laced depression to have these kind of reactions to anti-depressant medication, and I don't think some doctors take these risks seriously enough.
If you are feeling that bad, I would admit myself to hospital, because you are probably in danger to yourself. At least you will probably be taken seriously there, and you will be given emergency medication to stabilise you.
When I felt a little better, I began doing my own research, self-dx'ed, took it to my GP and he agreed.
It was only then I began the road to recovery after 15 years of being dx'd with severe chronic depression due to child abuse.
It is difficult to be your own advocate when you are ill. I had friends who helped me through many times, saying they knew when I felt better, I would kill myself...I was in a very deep depression at that time.
Doctors do not like to undermine the opinion of another doctor sometimes.
One key is to not go to the doctor when experiencing symptoms of depression only; it makes dx difficult for the doctor and s/he will just write a script for an anti-depressant and possibly recommend therapy.
I personally don't think we need to begin any regimen of medications without therapy. That doesn't mean one needs to say in therapy forever, but there are many issues in coping with this illness.
IF you are taking antidepressants, and you are bipolar, that can make you manic.
Along with a second opinion, ask your Dr. WHY he/she thinks you are not bipolar. Sometimes, they try a little reverse psychology to see what comes up when they counteract you.
Also, if you are complaining about being cold, that is not a typical depressive or manic symptom, but it is a hypothyroid symptom, which also can cause depression. See if your Dr. will check your thyroid if he/she hasn't already done that.
There are other signs of BP too....but you are on several meds, so it might be difficult to tell what is causing what. Did this Dr. diagnose you originally with BP?
If your Dr. does not know that, I highly recommend a second opinion.